The afternoon sun, brilliant and blinding, reflected off the wavy surface of the deep blue water, and as he flipped down his sunglasses the truth hit him like a blast of cold air. He wasn’t ready, probably never would be. What had he been thinking in agreeing to do this?
That a man couldn’t shirk his responsibility and still call himself a man. One way or another he was going to have to deal. It’s only for three months, he reminded himself. You can put up with anything for one summer, right?
“Hey, Sean!”
Sean spun around to find Garrett Taylor, the island’s chief of police, walking across the pier with his brother, Jesse. “Hey, guys.” The Taylors, Chicago transplants and two of Sean’s friends, had come to Mirabelle separately, but had quickly become part of the fabric of the island.
“Want to join us for lunch?” Jesse asked.
“Can’t today. Busy.” He nodded toward the ferry.
The Taylors both glanced out over the water.
“Today’s the day, huh?” Garrett said.
“Yep.”
“Good luck, man.” Jesse gave him a reassuring smile.
“Next happy hour at Duffy’s,” Garrett added. “I want to hear how it goes.”
“I’m sure everything will be fine,” Sean lied.
The brothers went on their way to the Bayside Café. Funny, they’d both found wives here on this little island. Maybe there was still hope for Sean.
He turned around in time to see the ferry dock with a surprisingly light touch against the pier. As the crew lowered the ramps and some of the first of this season’s tourists filed onto the island, he glanced at the faces of the people coming ashore. After all these years, would he still remember what she looked like?
The thought had no sooner entered his mind than he saw her face, his ex-fiancée, although their engagement had been so long ago it seemed silly to still think of her that way. On either side of her were two adolescents, a boy and a girl, looking to be around ten to twelve years old. Walking behind the three was a tall, rail-thin teenage boy. Well, maybe walking wasn’t the best description of how he was moving. Dragging his feet was more like it.
Sean tried for a clear look at the young man’s face, hoping for some spark of recognition, a flicker of familiarity, but the boy’s gaze remained firmly focused on the ground. “Denise,” Sean called, waving his hand above his head. “Over here.”
Pulling a suitcase behind her, she smiled. “Sean!”
Awkwardly, they stood before each other, and then she shook her head and hugged him. “It’s good to see you again.”
He wished he could say the same.
“This is my son, Jeffrey. My daughter, Erin.” Both kids smiled tentatively, and Sean nodded at each one in turn. Then Denise stepped back. “And this is Austin.”
The boy raised his head, looking directly into Sean’s eyes, and Sean let go the breath he hadn’t realized he’d been holding. Denise had obviously jumped through the hoops of DNA testing for nothing. It was almost as if he was looking at his sixteen-year-old self. Sean most definitely had a son.
He cleared his throat. “Hello, Austin.”
Through shaggy bangs, the boy silently stared at Sean as if he, too, could see the resemblance and wasn’t quite sure what to think, let alone do about it.
“Austin, the least you could do is say hello,” Denise said softly.
“Why should I?”
“Because you’re going to be here for the entire summer. I want you two to get along.”
“Oh. Sure, Mom. In that case, whatever you say.” He stared at Sean and bit out sarcastically, “Hi, Dad.” Then he angrily brushed past Sean and headed toward town.
Nice kid. That attitude was going to make for a great summer.
“Goodbye, Austin,” Denise called after him. “I’ll call you every week.”
The boy’s steps never even slowed.
“Austin, wait!” With tears in her eyes, the young girl, Erin, took off after her half brother.
Clearly reluctant, Austin stopped and turned.
Denise touched her other son’s arm. “Jeffrey, why don’t you say goodbye to Austin, too, and give me a few minutes alone with Sean?”
“Do I have to?”
Apparently, there was no love lost between the two brothers.
“Yes.” She gently pushed him forward. “Go.” Slowly, the boy took off toward his siblings. The moment he was out of earshot, Denise turned to Sean. “I’m sorry for this.”
“Not going to cut it, Denise. Not now. Not ever.”
“It’s all I’ve got. All the years we were engaged, you’d made it very clear that you never wanted to be a father. I wanted to start fresh with Glen. Not that it did any good in the end, but at the time, I felt justified.” She held his gaze. “Now I know that all the justifications in the world can’t make what I did right. I’m trying to fix that.”
“So just because you’re going through a nasty divorce, you decide to send your…problem here? That was the word you used, wasn’t it? You call that fixing things?”
“It’s the best I can do. Besides, you said you were going to be working 24/7 this summer. Austin can help. He’s a chip off the old block. Just go about your business and he’ll go about his.”
He wasn’t entirely sure if that was a cut at him or not, and decided to let it pass. “If he’s so self-sufficient, why don’t you keep him?”
“I need to focus on Jeffrey and Erin. Their dad leaving is hitting them really hard. Austin’s glad to see Glen go. He doesn’t care about the divorce. And he’s…just…a lot to handle right now. I don’t know what to do with the kid anymore. You know?”
“No. I don’t.”
“What was I supposed to do, Sean? You’re his father.”
“I fathered him. Glen is his father. There’s a big difference.”
Fathers cared for their kids. They went to school conferences and sporting events. They rocked their babies to sleep, wrestled with their toddlers and disciplined and guided their teenagers. At least that’s what Sean had always imagined good fathers were supposed to do. He’d done none of those things with Austin because until Denise’s phone call last week he hadn’t known the option had even been available. “You never gave me a chance to be his father.”
“I said I was sorry, and I know this isn’t fair to you. I just need a break. I’ll be ready to take him home again before school starts. I promise.”
Sean was a lot of things. A man, a friend, a doctor and, most recently, a horse stable and livery owner. One thing he’d never planned on being was a dad, and there was a damned good reason for that. He’d had a piss-poor role model. Maybe that explained why he had no clue what to do next.
He glanced behind him. Austin had hugged both of his half siblings and said a few words to each of them and was now continuing toward town. Should Sean go after the kid? Let him be? Shower him with kindness? Play taskmaster? Maybe, for now, he needed to give the kid a little space.
“Does he know where I live?” Sean asked.
“He has your address.” She handed him a file folder. “Here are some things you might need. His cell number, insurance card, allergies, all of my contact information. Oh, and his things.” She rolled a suitcase toward him.
“Do I need to