“No arguments here. I’m just not sure I want to go that route with—well, I admire your skills, but your days must have been long.”
He’d been thinking about what his plans were for Lily, hadn’t he? Ivy remembered what the women in town had said.
None of your business. Keep out, she thought. And yet…she slid from beneath the truck, wiping the oil off her hands with a rag. “When I was in town, there were some ladies talking about you.”
He raised one dark brow. One dark sexy brow. Uh-oh. “What were they saying?”
“You mean, besides the fact that they all want to run naked before you and have your babies?”
“Interesting conversation.”
“Just saying that they seemed disappointed that I couldn’t give them any hot news about you.”
“So you and the ladies in town are tight, eh?”
“Like this,” she said, twisting her fingers around each other. “Actually, we’re not so tight. I barely know them. At least one of them hates me. None of the others want to be my shopping buddy. Not their fault. I didn’t spend a lot of time socializing when I was growing up.”
“Understandable. You were fixing cars and herding cattle and painting houses.”
“Right.” Because he was partially right. Even if she had “fit” with the girls in town, she wouldn’t have had time to play. Which brought her back to the topic at hand. The one she wasn’t going to go near.
“But I could tell this much from their conversation. They think you’re keeping Lily from meeting other kids. They think it’s bad for her.”
Oh, brother, just shut up, Seacrest.
“I see.”
“No, you don’t. You think I’m being nosy and—okay, I am being nosy. Lily is…”
“Off-limits.”
“Yes.”
“And you never wanted to talk about her before.”
She still didn’t. It hurt too much.
“I know, but—”
“But nothing. No one tells me how to raise my kid.”
“I’m not doing that.”
“Sounds a lot like that’s where you’re headed, Ivy.”
“Okay, you’re right, but…”
“I’ll take her around to meet other kids when it’s time, but I want her to be grounded here first.”
“You’re afraid she’ll like town better.” Like his wife.
A mask came down over his eyes. The discussion was closed. She didn’t blame him. She had crossed a line. If Bo were still alive and some…stranger with no experience tried to tell her how to raise him, she’d feel the same way Noah did. Ivy cursed herself for doing something as stupid as trying to advise a real father on how to parent. She felt awkward, embarrassed and angry with herself, so she knelt to return to her task.
“Do you think you know so much more than I do?” Noah asked suddenly.
“No!” The word came out on a harsh whisper. “I know nothing. Almost nothing. I know…this one thing. I lived this one thing. If you keep her here, she’ll eventually feel trapped and grow to hate it. But you’re right. It’s your call. She is only two. There’s still time. I think.”
Noah swore beneath his breath. “Is that what happened to you? Your daddy trapped you on that ranch of his? I used to hear things, but—” he held out his hands “—I never knew much about the man.”
Ivy looked up into his eyes. “The ranch was all he thought about. It was his life, so he made it my life. He didn’t like the town or the people, just the ranch. We weren’t good neighbors and I felt awkward in school. I felt as if people knew I was a prisoner in my home. I didn’t know how to talk to people. I never learned. But you won’t do that to Lily. You love her.”
“I do. She’s everything. And I won’t hurt her. I promise. I won’t trap her.”
His words were soft and solemn. They made her ache, because they felt like…like an apology to her. She nodded and ducked her head. She needed to get back to work, to remember that he was her boss, and only her temporary boss at that.
But before she could slide back under the truck, he knelt beside her. “I’m sorry for what happened to you back then.”
Oh, no. Pity again. “Don’t be. It made me strong.”
“All right. Then I’m glad that you got to escape and had the chance to see the world.”
“And I apologize for interfering.”
“You were concerned about Lily.”
She shrugged. She didn’t want to be concerned about Lily. She absolutely could not open that door. The risk of being destroyed was too great.
“Ivy?”
“What?”
“Look at me.”
She didn’t want to, but if she didn’t, he would think she was weak.
“Some of those women have been giving you the cold shoulder, haven’t they?”
“They have their reasons.”
“I can’t think of a single good one. I’ll talk to them.”
Reaching out, she curved her palm around his bare biceps, clamping down, trying not to notice the sensation of her skin against his. “No.”
“It’s not right.”
“It is what it is. I’ll handle things.”
“You’re my employee. I can’t have people mistreating you.”
“If you think that you chastising them for not liking me will change their minds, you’re totally clueless. Some of them are half in love with you.”
He frowned. “Ivy…”
“Noah…please don’t. It won’t help, and it doesn’t matter anyway. I won’t be here long enough for it to matter.” It was a warning to herself. She didn’t want to become one of those women. She didn’t want any man having power over her again.
He blew out an exasperated breath. “Only half in love?” he suddenly said.
“What?”
He gave her a slow grin. “The women. Only half in love with me?”
“You’re good. Maybe that’s why you’re the boss.”
“Good at what?”
“At turning a topic around. At dispelling tension.”
“Maybe. Maybe not.” He looked into her eyes, and she saw the fire burning there. Oh, yeah, he was right. There was plenty of tension here.
“I have to be smart,” he said. “And not follow my instincts. You understand what I mean?”
How could she not when he glanced down to where her fingers were still curled around his arm? The very sight made her long to slide her hand higher, up his arm, down his chest. Instantly she let go of him.
“People can get hurt,” he said. He meant her. Somehow she knew he meant her.
“I won’t.”
“Because you’re strong?”
No. She wasn’t that strong. “Because I know what happens when a woman lets a man have power over her. I’ve done it