And very good for him.
But he still hadn’t made much headway when it came to knowing her, openly speaking with her. She’d learned to hide herself quite well. She projected so much warmth and charm that one didn’t realize how neatly she sidestepped the personal until later.
Princess Nicolette did not wear her heart on her sleeve. Instead she kept her heart buried very deep. But it was her heart he wanted, and right now he wasn’t even sure he had that. She was attracted to him, and responded to him, but the fact that she continued to hide her true identity had begun to trouble him. What if she didn’t intend to go through with the wedding? What if she still intended to leave him at the altar, the jilted royal bridegroom?
The thought left him cold. His jaw gritted and he felt ice lodge in his chest, close to his heart. He wanted her. He needed her. He had no intention of losing her now.
His temper and emotions firmly in control, Malik moved forward, claimed Nicolette, drawing her with him into his desert home.
‘‘We call this house the Citadel,’’ he said, showing Nicolette around his Zefd desert home. ‘‘It was built as a fortress, and although the royal family has lived here off and on for the past two hundred years, it still serves as an important military outpost, one of our stronger defensive positions.’’
‘‘Does Baraka worry about its neighbors?’’
‘‘The neighbors aren’t the threat. Our troubles historically have come from within.’’ He opened a door, leading to a large walled garden dominated by an ancient argan tree. The tree’s upper limbs were enormous and gnarled, like spiny green dragons fighting.
They took a seat in the shade and were immediately served with glasses of ice cold, very sweet mint tea.
Malik’s expression became contemplative and he drummed his fingers on the table. When he spoke next, he chose his words with care. ‘‘We have a complex society in Baraka, our culture that of Berber, Boudin, Arab, African. Throw in some French colonialism and you have intense conflicts.’’
She considered him. ‘‘How intense?’’
‘‘We’ve had more than our share of political turmoil in this century. Unfortunately, the last fifty years have been especially…explosive.’’
She reached for her glass, sipped the icy beverage gratefully. ‘‘The tensions have boiled over?’’
‘‘Violently.’’
‘‘It seems I do need to learn Baraka’s history,’’ Nic said, setting her glass down.
He hesitated, staring off, his gaze on the red mountains beyond, the manicured palm trees lining the exterior citadel wall. ‘‘Baraka was in the midst of a violent civil war when I was born. This war lasted fifteen years. Everyone took sides. Many fought on behalf of the royal family, others fought for the insurgents. You see, we’d been under French rule for so long that people were fighting simply because they were angry, and scared, and no one knew what was best. I was still just a small child when my grandfather was assassinated, but I’ve never forgotten that day.’’
His brow furrowed as he remembered those dark violent years. ‘‘My grandfather’s assassination ended the war.’’ He turned and looked at her, his expression curiously blank. ‘‘Because you see, my grandfather was universally loved. He wasn’t supposed to be killed. This wasn’t a fight against him, or the family, but a fight about culture…custom…a fight to be recognized. The country virtually shut down the day of Grandfather’s funeral. All the people took to the streets. I’ve never forgotten the sound of weeping, thousands of people weeping, and it taught me that nothing is more important than life. Than family.’’
‘‘I’m surprised you haven’t married before then.’’
‘‘It didn’t feel urgent.’’
‘‘And it is now?’’
His mouth opened as if to speak but instead he closed it, shook his head.
Truthfully, he’d never worried about marrying, having children, he’d been certain it was a matter of timing and sooner or later he’d meet the right woman…but it hadn’t happened, and here he was, in his late thirties, and without a wife, an heir, or a family of his own.
And with one assassination attempt against him already.
Malik drank his tea, let the cool liquid pour down his throat and ice his raw emotions. It’d been a difficult twenty-four hour period. He was feeling the strain of Fatima’s desperate measures, Nicolette’s masquerade, and his own need for closure. He just wished he knew if she’d come through, meet him on her own terms. He wanted her on her terms, he wanted her heart, her laughter, her commitment. But he couldn’t push her…yet.
He turned his head, looked at Nic whose features were grave, a deep furrow between her eyebrows from thinking hard, listening so intently.
‘‘The years of war changed the way I looked at society,’’ he continued. ‘‘It impacted the way I view our culture and the idea of stability. I learned early that we must embrace change, that without change we die.’’
‘‘I would have thought you’d be afraid of change. After all, change triggered your grandfather’s death—as well as that decade and half of turmoil. One would think you’d associate change with danger.’’
He shrugged. ‘‘But chaos and turmoil surround us, whether or not we choose to recognize it. Just because we don’t see turmoil, or because we’re not immediately impacted, doesn’t negate its existence. Chaos can happen at any time.’’
‘‘So your philosophy is…?’’
Talking with Nic was good for him. ‘‘Change is good. Change is necessary. It doesn’t mean that one can’t revere the past and respect tradition, but tradition is pointless unless one can use tradition to teach, to use as a benchmark, to show one where and how to aim.’’
She leaned back in the chaise. ‘‘You like being King.’’
‘‘I love being King.’’
CHAPTER TEN
NIC couldn’t look away from his remarkable face with the light silver eyes. He was so quiet, so controlled. She’d had no idea he’d been through so much. Another man might have been angry, bitter, cruel, but Malik had accepted the tragedies with grace.
Baraka, she whispered to herself. Baraka, Fatima had once told her, meant Grace and peace. Malik had that peace, didn’t he?
‘‘There are dangers, of course,’’ he said after a reflective silence, ‘‘but we all face danger at different points in our life. The secret is to be aware of the danger, to know how one is vulnerable, and then embrace truth, and life, and move on.’’
He rose, took her hand in his, and tugged her to her feet. ‘‘You still look hot, laeela. Let me take you to your room. You’ll be pleased to know you have your own private swimming pool.’’
It was good news and Nic took a long, leisurely swim before dinner. The bottom and sides of the pool had been painted a sapphire blue and as Nic floated on her back, she stared up at the high pink stone towers surrounding her, one tower covered in purple bougainvillea, while climbing roses draped another tower wall, the petals the palest shade of pink. With jasmine and sweet orange blossoms scenting the air, and the setting sun painting the ancient walls a dusty red, Nicolette closed her eyes and felt…bliss. Baraka, she whispered to herself. Grace and peace.
Nicolette was to meet Malik in one of the walled courtyards for dinner. The Citadel staff had planned a special welcome supper for the princess, and the outdoor party delighted Nic, especially as it was a very exclusive party with just two guests—them.
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