For the first time, maybe ever, my teenage son and I understand each other.
We head off to bed laughing.
***
I wake to the aromas of a picnic in the woods: fresh pine and frying bacon. It’s only been a few hours since Ben and I retired for the night, but a whispered conversation up in the kitchen clues me in to the fact that my eldest son and his little sister are awake. The two of them are cooking up something that Ben doesn’t want me to know about.
“Keep it down. You’ll wake her,” he says with a voice so deep it bellows down the stairwell. Megan giggles.
“I can’t wait for her to see it. I just can’t wait,” she says.
Figuring I’m about to be served breakfast in bed—or, on couch, such as it is—I close my eyes and relax, until they decide it’s time to eat. I figure Ben is trying to earn back his car keys. I won’t tell him it’s not going to work until after the meal. I close my eyes and drift back to sleep.
A half hour later, Megan holds a slice of cooked bacon under my nose.
When I open my eyes, she eats the meat and then runs back upstairs hollering, “Breakfast.”
Upstairs, it’s not the eggs, or the bacon, or even the toast that surprises me. It’s the tree. Our somewhat lopsided evergreen stands in front of the living room window, covered in strands of tiny white lights.
“Who did this?”
Megan beams. “It was Ben.”
Beside the tree, a box labeled “Dad’s stuff” stands empty, except for Rick’s measuring tape.
Rick had been the tree-lighting aficionado of the family, with arms long enough to reach to the very top of any tree, a feat he ensured before the purchase of a pine. He painstakingly untangled the mess of twisted strands that I had hastily packed the previous year. Once assured every bulb lighted, Rick measured the distance between light strings as he wrapped them around the tree. He would have measured the distance between ornaments if I had let him.
Less than twenty-four hours ago, Ben was disavowing all things holiday related. Today he’s lighting the tree. I should be shocked, but I’m not. Unexpected events are becoming the norm in our house, especially when it comes to Christmas.
“You did this?” I ask Ben. I want to hear it from him.
Ben leaves the room for a moment and comes back holding one of the six cups from the gift givers, filled with orange juice.
“They’ve been trying to help us through Christmas. My attitude has been … sort of … undermining their efforts,” he says. “Next year, we can all put the lights on the tree together. This time, I needed it to be just me and Dad.”
I nod an affirmative to Ben and take deep breaths so I don’t cry.
“Don’t you go getting another cold,” Megan says. “It’s way too close to Christmas.”
“Do you like the tree by the picture window, instead of downstairs in the family room like always?” Ben asks. “I think it makes the house merrier from the outside.”
“When did my kids get so smart?” I ask myself, then to Ben, “Good job.”
“How about we eat,” he says, and then he shouts a warning to his sleeping brother. “Bacon will be gone in sixty seconds.”
Nick is the first one seated at the table.
Use of the plastic Christmas cups with our morning meal turns all our thoughts to the identity of our true friends and the gift we expect to receive sometime today.
“What’s the seventh gift in the song?” Megan asks, but none of us is sure.
Nick volunteers to look up the lyrics to “The Twelve Days of Christmas” after the last piece of bacon disappears off the plate. He prints out a copy of the song and returns to the table, where Ben, Megan, and I are still debating whether one of their art teachers could be a suspect. Refusing to sing the words of the song as his sister requests, Nick reads off the list of gifts.
“Seven swans a-swimming, eight maids a-milking, nine ladies dancing, ten lords a-leaping, eleven pipers piping, and twelve drummers drumming. Geez, definitely not what I would be sending to a true love.”
We all stare at Nick. My mouth is hanging open.
“So, what would you be sending, and to whom?” Ben asks, but we all want to know.
“Not saying I plan to send anything to anybody, but if I did, I’d send cool stuff: candy, video games, DVDs.”
“That would be awfully expensive,” I say. “I like the gifts we’ve been receiving. They’re big enough to show someone cares without being too much.”
Nick mulls over the idea.
“Just in case we get Swedish fish or Goldfish crackers tonight, instead of seven swimming swans, I got dibs,” he says.
I volunteer to wash the dishes and send the kids to their rooms with plastic bags to fill with any outgrown clothes or toys. I plan to make a trip to the Goodwill donation trailer today to deposit the items we boxed up from the basement and Rick’s things. I don’t want to give myself a chance to change my mind and keep them.
I’m clearing away the remains of our breakfast, when I get a telephone call from an old friend of Rick’s. Terry Molnar had worked at Gem City Engineering with my husband for years.
“The guys at the shop bought some Christmas presents for the kids. I’d like to drop them off.”
We arrange to meet later in the week. I don’t mention the anonymous gifts or the cards. I decide to wait until Terry’s here at the house to tell him about them, so I can see his reaction.
It’s all beginning to make sense.
I can’t believe I never considered the guys from Gem City as our gift givers. Rick had worked there for more than twenty years. Many of his coworkers had also been close friends.
I decide to keep my suspicions to myself. If I’m right, I don’t want to spoil the surprise for the kids. Before Terry’s arrival, I will grant one of Megan’s Christmas wishes. I will bring our collection of Santa figures out of hiding tomorrow.
***
It’s nearly four o’clock by the time I load the trunk of my car with our giveaways and drive to Goodwill. The donation trailer is locked, but people have stacked an assortment of bags and boxes filled with clothes, toys, and household bric-a-brac underneath the trailer to give them protection from the weather.
A man is digging through the stockpile.
Holding a doll with wild white hair, he spits on his finger and tries to wipe a smudge off its face. I assume it didn’t work. He tosses the doll back into a box and continues his search.
I’m unsure whether to get out of the car or wait until he leaves. Then I get an idea. I walk over and talk to him.
“How old is your daughter?” I ask.
He stands up and turns to face me.
“She’s eight,” he says, looking down. “Did something stupid at work. Lost my job. I was hoping to find something to put under the tree.”
“Any luck?”
He shakes his head.
“Most of what people give, no one would want.”
I had felt that way a few days ago, and suddenly I am overwhelmed by a desire to make sure this man knows he is not the only one feeling desperate during these holidays.
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