“We must find her.” Ma clasped her hands together imploringly. “You won’t leave until we do, will you, Mr. Morehead?”
The wagon master’s long, hesitant pause spoke volumes. “We’ll do our best, Mrs. Bryan, but you’ve got to realize people on this train are hell-bent on getting to California. We have a schedule to keep. You know if we lag behind, we could get stuck in the snow. They’re not going to like it if we stay too long.”
Ma gasped. “You mean you’d leave without Florrie?”
“Let’s see what tomorrow brings.” With a somber shake of his head, Albert Morehead walked away.
Sarah watched after him with a sinking heart. One thing was certain. Sympathetic though he might be, the wagon master would stick to his schedule.
* * * *
In the morning, the rain had stopped, the sun came out, and most of the men of the company, and some of the women, returned to the woods to search for Florrie. Sarah wanted to search, too, but by now Ma was in such a despondent state she couldn’t be left alone. “Sarah, don’t you leave me,” she had implored. “You’re the one I count on. Don’t leave me here with Becky.”
If she hadn’t been so upset, Ma would have probably gone into her usual rant about why Hiram, her adored son, had married Elizabeth “Becky” Marshall, a pretty enough young woman with her rosebud mouth and voluptuous figure, but known for her sharp tongue and superior attitude. Sarah knew very well why he hadn’t escaped Becky’s so-called charms. At twenty-two, her tall, affable brother held an ordinary clerk’s job in a lawyer’s office, but he was also an artist with a dreamy look in his blue, deep-set eyes. With his finely drawn features and blond, rumpled hair, he’d been so popular with the ladies he could have had his pick. Then Becky set her cap for him, and he resembled a helpless insect caught in a spider’s web. Flattered by her interest, he’d shown her some attention. Sarah wasn’t sure how much he loved her, if he loved her at all, but apparently he’d given her enough “attention” that when Becky announced she was in a family way, he married her without a murmur. Two months later, when Becky “lost” the baby, Ma suspected Becky had lied. Sarah was sure of it. Too late now. The family did their best to make her feel welcome. At first, she was pleasant enough, but as time went by, she became difficult to deal with. It was easy to see why. Becky desperately wanted a child, but as months, then years, went by with no sign of a baby on the way, she grew sour-faced and always complained. Most annoying of all, Hiram wouldn’t stand up to her. Sarah cringed whenever she heard Becky ordering her easy-going brother around and saw how eagerly he did her bidding. Assert yourself, she would silently call, but he never would.
By mid-morning, discouraged searchers began to straggle back to the camp.
“Not a trace of her. Sorry, Mrs. Bryan.”
“We scoured the woods. There’s just no place left to look.”
A glazed look of despair covering her face, Ma could barely manage a reply. Despite Sarah’s pleas, she refused to eat.
By noon, the disheartened members of the wagon train had all returned. Sarah’s father and brother were the last ones back. Shoulders sagging in discouragement, Pa sat by the campfire beside his wife and took her hand. “Our girl is gone, dear. Lord knows what’s become of her.”
“No, no, no!” Ma stared at him wild-eyed. “Florrie’s out there somewhere. You must keep looking.”
Hiram knelt by his mother’s side. “We’ve looked everywhere, couldn’t find a trace.”
“Then keep looking. I won’t leave without my Florrie.” Ma clenched her jaw and looked away.
Albert Morehead appeared at their campsite. Ma rose to greet him. “Tell me you’ve found her.”
Morehead swept off his hat, regretfully shaking his head. “We can’t find her, Mrs. Bryan. Scoured the woods. Looked everywhere. I can’t think what happened to her unless she ran off by herself and—”
“Florrie would never run off!” Ma’s eyes blazed with anger.
“Then…of course, she wouldn’t.” For once the confident leader of the wagon train appeared unsure of himself. “It’s surely a mystery, and I don’t know the answer, but the thing is we’ve got a schedule to keep. We can’t—”
“But you must keep looking.” Ma turned a shade paler than she already was. “We can’t leave without her.” She turned to her husband. “Tell him, Frank.”
Pa bit his lip. “They can’t find her, Luzena. They can’t wait around forever.”
Desperation flared in Sarah’s chest. She stepped beside her mother and looked the wagon master square in the eye. “Florrie can’t have gone very far. Surely someone will find her if we search long enough. You can’t—”
“Sorry, Sarah.” Morehead turned to Ma. “I have no choice, Mrs. Bryan. The others want to leave and there’s no stopping them.”
The desperate look on Ma’s face changed to one of stubborn resolve as comprehension dawned. “Go ahead if you must, but I’m not leaving until we find Florrie.”
The wagon master let loose a breath that was half sympathy, half frustration. “You must come with us. There’s no point in staying. Besides, it’s dangerous to be alone on the trail. Indians—wild animals—you would not do well by yourselves. What about your food supply? Don’t forget winter is coming. God forbid you should get stuck in the snow.”
“We’re staying.”
Morehead sighed in defeat. “I see I can’t dissuade you.” He looked at Pa. “Try to make her see reason, Mr. Bryan. I’ll check back before we leave.” He turned on his heel and hurried off.
A stirring began around the circle of wagons. Parents called for their children. Oxen bellowed as they were yoked. Ma looked around the campground, eyes wide with shock. “They’re really leaving? Oh, they can’t, they can’t!” As if she’d lost all her strength, she fell to her knees and put her head in her hands.
Pa knelt beside her. “You’d best reconsider, Luzena. Morehead’s right. There’s nothing to be gained by staying.”
“But there is.” Ma talked through her sobs. “How will Florrie find us if we don’t stay right here in this very spot? I can’t bear to think how hurt and bewildered she’ll be when she comes back and finds us gone.”
Sarah knelt and faced her distraught mother. She reached out and took her hands. “I’m afraid Pa’s right.” She spoke as gently as she could. “You’re not thinking clearly right now. We don’t know what’s happened to Florrie, but there’s no reason to stay in this godforsaken spot. Look around you. The wilderness is a dangerous place. It’s best we stay with the train. That way, we can inquire along the way and…” Why go on? Judging from the mad desperation in her mother’s eyes, further words were worthless. Nothing could comfort her right now. Most certainly nothing was going to change her mind. Sarah looked at Pa. “Why don’t we at least stay the night? We can search the rest of the day, and tomorrow we can search some more. Then it shouldn’t be too hard to catch up with the train.”
Hiram and Becky stood listening. “That’s a good idea,” Hiram said.
“No, it’s not!” Becky jammed her fists to her waist and scowled. “I refuse to let myself be stranded in this awful place. There’s wild animals and snakes out there, and Indians and God knows what else. I’m sorry Florrie’s lost, but I refuse to stay. I want the protection of the company.”
Becky’s words caused Ma to set her chin in a stubborn line. “The rest of you can go if you want, but I’m staying right here to wait for my daughter.”
One by one, the wagons took their assigned place in line. As they slowly rolled