My Ariel
Sina Queyras
Coach House Books, Toronto
copyright © Sina Queyras, 2017
first edition
Published with the generous assistance of the Canada Council for the Arts and the Ontario Arts Council. Coach House Books also acknowledges the support of the Government of Canada through the Canada Book Fund and the Government of Ontario through the Ontario Book Publishing Tax Credit.
Please note: these poems offer an engagement with the life and work of Sylvia Plath and Ted Hughes; they do not claim to be the truth of their lives, only the truth of my own engagement.
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My Ariel / Sina Queyras.
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I once knew a lady from Mass.
Who was sometimes a pain in the ass.
Every damn comma
Was really high drama
But she was quite a talented lass.
– Roz Chast
Look at your works, you asshole, and despair.
–Damian Rogers
All the Dainty Broads
Morning Song
A love procedure set me going like a big fat lie.
An IT specialist slapped a motherboard
And my first bald Tweet slid into the feed.
All night Instagrams and updates Flickr
In pixellated dreams. I wake to a beep, stumble
Out in my men’s nightshirt and stare, blank as a gull,
Into the liquid crystal display.
Am I any more authentic than the account
That Tweets your verse?
Or the cloud that archives your words?
Or the screen on which your poems float?
Dickinson says to fill a gap, insert the thing that caused it.
What thing? This sleek app that brightens
And swallows my thoughts? These two moons
That fill my palms and eat my hours?
Vowels rise and hover like drones.
What is missing in me? Refresh. Refresh.
I can’t stop searching for love here.
The Couriers
Words from a leaf on the shell of a snail?
Tenderness as reciprocity etched in shale.
Communion wafers wrapped in sealskin?
Accept it, so little is genuine.
A box on a meteor compelled by earth?
Lies, emptiness, and grief: do your worst.
Frost on the dock at Penetanguishene?
Tears from lakes Huron, Erie, and Michigan.
Not a moment to yourself? Spread the cards,
Tarot will help.
A preponderance of biographers?
The soft one sucks her rivers.
RTS, RTS, RTS have their reason.
Affirmation, affirmation, affirmation is the season.
Women in Fog
Labels descend into blankness.
Avatars are never sad
And rarely disappoint.
Tweets leave their trail of
Exhaustion; potential
Cantors grey and slow
As mules. She would like
Suits with bells and sweet,
Whimsical Fluevog feet.
She opened the window
And bid her walk into
Optimism. Do not lie
About love, do not
Make these difficult
Waters a heavenly blur!
They led each other
To the screen, spread
The rim, and dove.
The Jailer
Feelings are a hopeless theory.
Daily I fall from grace, the big
Splash, whatever.
I should have been an epic,
Eaten footnotes, married
Architecture, swirling through my twenties
In classics and couture. Poetry
Is the big lie. Oh sure, love crashed
Into my life, a dark pillar of flight,
A walking muscle with a slick
Of black hair. Soon it was legal.
A swoon of potential swelled
In the bowl of my hips. I stared
Into his heart but like the emperor
I was too vain, I said, What a tower,
What a prize! Brute love that
Line by line we indulged, so crazed
We wrote until we tasted
The last of it and stunned ourselves
With our emptiness.
I should have gone to Hollywood.
If you’re going to be a trophy
You might as well go for gold.
Stop at nothing, you who are
Ambitious.