A House Interrupted. Maurita Corcoron

used other drugs like alcohol, marijuana, and ecstasy to fuel his sexual acting out.

      I listened as best I could, but my thoughts were scattered and fragmented. Who did I really marry and where did this behavior come from?

      Dr. Irons ended our discussion with more grim news. “Statistically your marriage has a 98 percent chance of failure due to the length of time and scope of Ben’s addictive behavior. There is also a 95 percent chance of Ben having a sexual relapse in the first five years of his recovery.”

      I slumped in my chair at this final blow. I could no longer hear the words of Dr. Irons. I was numb, shocked, and totally overwhelmed by the information and picture that was being painted before me.

      “Did you ever think I would find out about any of this?” I asked Ben.

      “No.”

      “Did you ever think you’d get caught?”

      “No,” he said. “I thought I was in complete control of it all. I thought I was too good at hiding it. Getting caught didn’t even occur to me.”

      I looked at him, not knowing what to say. What a moron, I thought to myself.