“It sounds familiar, but I can’t . . .”
Rolfe lowers his voice and looks away. “It’s a drug like an amphetamine. It weakens you. It breaks you down. And in the long run, it turns your brain to mush. I’m not clear about how much time that takes, but when they’re putting the stuff directly into your veins, the way they do with you . . . well, I don’t think you can hold out very long.”
—
The nurse has hooked up the IV and left the ward. Kasper’s lying on his cot. Rolfe comes over and pretends to chat with him while shielding him from view. Kasper disconnects the tubing from the needle in his arm, thrusts the IV line under the krama spread over the metal frame of his cot, and lets the liquid drain onto the floor.
Let the rats and cockroaches have his Ritalin.
Kasper wants to determine whether the stuff that’s been dripping into his veins is really what the American said it was. Before many hours pass, he gets his answer. The wave of fatigue that comes over him is weaker than usual, but at the same time he’s afflicted by panicky spasms he quickly identifies: drug withdrawal symptoms.
He spent years tracking down cocaine and heroin dealers, he’s seen more tons of dope than he can count, and now he’s a poor addict. Hooked on Ritalin and who knows what else.
Later he and Thomas go out into the courtyard with all the others. The American scrutinizes his companion, trying to gauge the storm raging inside him at the moment. Kasper’s swallowing hard, sweating, fidgeting. He knows that if the nurse approached him with some Ritalin right now, he’d probably hug him and hold out both arms, veins up.
A zombie among dozens of other zombies.
But not Thomas Rolfe.
The framed and thrashed American will soon be getting out. Fellow Americans will come and collect him. Like in a John Wayne film: the cavalry, the flag, the bugle calls, and all the rest. He’s probably the only nonaddict in the place. The only one capable of seeing things in their true light.
Kasper decides to trust him. After all, what has he got to lose? He says, “I’m planning an escape.”
Thomas stares at him with tight lips.
“You heard me right,” Kasper murmurs. “I’ve got a plan.”
He begins with Brady Fielding, whom Rolfe had met the day before.
Brady had been informed of Kasper’s plight by Jan van Veen, and when he heard what the Dutchman had to tell him, at first he couldn’t believe his ears. Then he got busy, requesting and obtaining permission to visit his friend.
“What . . . what the hell have they done to you?” Brady whispered.
“They’re killing me,” Kasper said.
“Shit, I can see that.”
“Can you help me?”
“Whatever you want me to do, I’m there for you.”
“You have to take me away from here,” Kasper said. Then he explained how.
And now he explains the plan to Thomas.
During the daily hour in the courtyard, while someone distracts the guards, Kasper will climb over the gate and launch himself onto the pyramid of garbage. He’ll roll down from there, run to the opposite wall, jump over it, and drop onto Boulevard Pasteur.
Brady will be easy to spot. Helmet, leather jacket, his best bike. They’ll make for the Cardamom Mountains, on the border with Thailand. There they’ll separate, and Kasper will try to get across the border on foot.
“The Cardamom Mountains?” Thomas stammers. “I’ve heard about them, but Jesus . . . It’s madness, there are tigers up there, and bears . . . and . . . and the locals are genuine savages.”
“Brady will bring me the right shoes.”
“Shoes . . . Ah, right, in that case there’s nothing to worry about.”
“Well, as for that, the area’s also full of antipersonnel mines,” says Kasper, smiling. “But if you asked me what I’d give to be there right now, I’d tell you: anything at all.”
“Anything at all,” Thomas repeats.
“Because the big problem is getting there. It won’t be simple.”
Kasper gestures toward the guards. At the moment there are five of them, distracted by their own noisy chatter. The gate’s about twenty meters from them, and climbing it will not be a piece of cake. Not so long ago, he could have done it easily—it’s only about two and a half meters high—but now he feels like an old man, plus he’s got mashed hands and feet. Two and a half meters look like two hundred.
But he has to make it.
All he needs is someone to distract the guards.
He looks at Thomas.
Thomas looks at him. “What do you want me to do?”
“You have to feel very sick.”
“When?”
“Tomorrow morning. If you’re still here.”
—
The next day Thomas Rolfe has a visitor, an official from the American embassy. The guards allow them to step out of the ward for a private talk.
Kasper watches them go and thinks about how, once again, he’s rolling the dice. Challenges are fraught with possibilities, he tells himself, with the fatalism of one who’s swaying on a cord suspended over the void.
First possibility: the embassy official’s here to spring Thomas. He comes back into the ward, bids Kasper farewell, and goes away forever. Or maybe he doesn’t even come back in. End of story.
Second possibility: Thomas spills the beans to the official and tells him what Kasper has planned for this very day. Well, if that’s the case, he’ll see the effects soon enough.
Third possibility: Thomas comes back in, helps him to dump his dose of Ritalin, helps him to escape, and then God will provide. For him and also for Thomas, he hopes.
Kasper assigns the probabilities.
First hypothesis: 45 percent.
Second hypothesis: another 45 percent.
Third hypothesis: 5 percent.
Other eventualities: the remaining 5 percent.
From which he deduces that, realistically speaking, all hope is lost.
Thomas returns and goes over to him. Kasper’s IV has been hooked up and the Ritalin drip has just begun. Kasper thinks that today a double dose might not be so bad, given how things are probably going to turn out. But the American screens him and helps him disconnect the tubing. Once again, the Ritalin will go to relaxing the rats.
“I asked permission to leave tomorrow afternoon instead of tomorrow morning.”
“What the hell are you talking about?” Kasper asks.
“I made up a story. I told the embassy guy I have to talk to the doctors and nurses tomorrow morning. I said that as an American citizen, I want to ask them to treat the people I’ve met in here better. More humanely. I made a long speech about American values. The guy from the embassy looked touched. He’s from Boston, seems like a nice kid.”
“You were supposed to get out tomorrow morning. . . .”
“A few hours later won’t make any difference.”
“The guy from the embassy must have thought you were crazy.”
“So did I,” says Rolfe with a smile.
—
Phnom Penh’s rumbling more loudly than usual. It’s out there,