I laugh at the name.
“You pull up behind someone and tap their car, just give it a little bump. When they get out to check the damage, the second guy hops in and takes off in the car.”
Rat pulls some beers out of a fridge in the back. A question’s been lodged in my throat. “But no one gets hurt, right? What if there’s a kid or something in the back seat?”
Henry kind of snorts and shakes his head. “You’re not some kind of hippie, are you? Hanging out with the Polish kid made you soft. You’re not a faggot, are you?”
You were the one in jail, I want to say, but I’ve learned to keep my mouth shut around Henry.
I shake my head, careful not to get too uptight about it. If he knows I don’t like it when he talks about Koob, he’ll just do it more.
“Hey, Rat, are you gonna use all that spray paint?” I ask. Cans of it sit in rows on a workbench, some isn’t even opened.
He shrugs. “You could take a few cans. Al won’t miss it.”
Koob will be pumped when I show up with some free cannons. “We done for the day?”
Henry nods. “We can meet up tomorrow, give you some more practice. Here,” Henry says and pulls something out of his pocket. “Little present for good behaviour.”
The train yards smell like grinding metal, rust, and oil. Like dirt and gravel and black gunk that gets stuck under your fingernails. I let my pack drop to the ground and unzip it. Koob leans over to take a look. He gives a low whistle as I line up the cans of Rusto. “Where’d you get all that? That’s like $50 worth of paint!”
“Didn’t even have to steal it or nothing. One of Henry’s friends gave it to me.” I don’t say nothing else, not what I was doing with Henry or where we were. If he finds out Henry wants me to steal cars for him, he’ll lose his shit.
The street lamp turns the ground orange. Insects buzz around the bulbs. Masses of them. A lot of the train cars have tags. It’s like a train graveyard at night. Quiet. In the daytime, wheels grind on tracks and machines are so loud you have to yell to be heard.
This is where Mr. K hurt his leg. Koob told me he couldn’t hear the guys shouting at him, warning him about the load that was about to come down. Too late, he tried to run, but not all of him made it. I think that’s why Koob likes to paint the cars. A “screw you!” for hurting his dad.
I hold a small bag up, dangling it in front of Koob’s face. “Look what else I got.” Four joints, expertly rolled.
“I don’t want to be high when I paint,” Koob says, shaking his head.
I laugh. “That’s cuz we never have anything to get high on! Except fumes.”
“Henry gave those to you, too?”
I shrug, pissed that he ruined my surprise. If I got them from anyone else, he’d smoke one. It’s just cuz they’re from Henry that he’s mad.
There’s more I want to tell him. About Roxy and what it was like at the clubhouse. The stories I heard from the other Red Bloodz about almost getting stabbed or outrunning the cops. Glory stories, Henry called them. But the way Koob’s looking at me, I keep my mouth shut. He won’t want to hear any of them. “He’s looking out for me.”
“Is that what you call it?” he mumbles.
“He’s teaching me things.”
Koob’s head snaps up. “Like what?”
The secret burns in my throat. “Survival skills.” I grin.
“Henry’s a boy scout now?” he says with a smirk. “You learning how to start a fire by rubbing two sticks together?”
In the distance, there’s traffic, cars fighting to get up the bridge. I snort at Koob and shake my head. “Useful stuff, like how to make money. He thinks I can bring home a grand a week if I work with him.” Just saying it made my stomach flip. How different would my life be with money in my pocket?
Gravel crunches under his feet, as Koob moves closer. “Are you dealing?”
Henry told me not to say, but it’s Koob. I have to tell him. I shake my head. “Cars, man. He’s teaching me to lift them.”
At first Koob laughs, like I’m joking, but when I don’t smile back, he shakes his head. “Shit,” he says under his breath.
“It’s not like what you think. Henry told me, when a car gets stolen” — I drop my voice even though no one else is around — “people get their money back, from insurance or something. It’s like a win-win. We get paid and they get paid.”
“Are you shitting me right now?”
I shake my head, thinking I probably should have listened to Henry. Koob’s looking at me like I’m an idiot. “If someone’s stupid enough to leave keys in the car, they deserve it.” Henry had said that, too.
“He’s using you,” Koob says.
I back away, staring at the ground. “No, he’s not,” I mumble.
Koob takes a breath. “You can’t see it because he’s your brother, but he is. I’m serious, man. Do not get involved with this shit.”
I look at him, but I’m pissed. I go along with his plans, following him up to the tops of buildings, sneaking out in the middle of the night to train yards. That’s all illegal, but I do it.
“Henry’s looking out for me,” I say again. I can hear Koob breathing beside me and I think he’s going to walk away, too pissed to paint.
We don’t fight, me and him, ever. Maybe he’s jealous I got something else going on, that Henry wants me to hang with him. “Pretend I never said anything about Henry, okay? I shouldn’t have told you.”
“You’re gonna get burned.”
I shrug. I don’t wanna fight with him, so I let it drop. Him and Henry are like the angel and the devil, one on each shoulder.
“There’s a car down there we could end-to-end.” Koob says. His voice is stiff. He puts all the cannons back into the bag and slings it over his shoulder. I stuff the joints into the pocket of my hoodie. “Practise the piece I showed you, before we throw it up.”
We walk along the tracks, balancing on the metal rails. I keep slipping off, but Koob, even with the bag, stays steady.
Between the train cars, a big yellow moon glows. Like an eyeball, watching us.
Jakub
I crouch over my sketchbook, drawing. Sometimes, an idea pops into my head and I have to find a scrap of paper, a gum wrapper, anything, before I forget it. I see how people look at graffiti art that has meaning. They stop to take it in. They respect the artist. There are some guys with talent around the city right now. Creeping, like me, in the night and leaving behind a piece that forces people to stop and stare in the morning.
This new piece that’s taking shape isn’t about my name. It’s about this place. A human head and torso, bound and gagged with a building for legs: half-man, half-structure. Looks good in my sketchbook, but throwing it up scares me. What if people think it’s stupid and laugh at it? Or worse, a king tags it with TOYS, the ultimate insult to a graff writer. Tag Over Your Shit.
Dad comes home late that night, humming Polish folk songs. It’s when I know he’s happy, the quiet rumble in his throat making him nod his head.
“Jakub!” He claps his hands and rubs them together. “I have news,” he sings. “Great