INTIMATE TREASON
CLAUDIA BLACK, PHD and
CARA TRIPODI, LCSW
CENTRAL RECOVERY PRESS
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© 2012 by Claudia Black and Cara Tripodi. All rights reserved.
Published 2012.
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Publisher: Central Recovery Press
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Las Vegas, NV 89129
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ISBN-13: 978-1-937612-01-6 (e-book)
Photo of Claudia Black © Brad Reed Photography. Used with permission.
Photo of Cara Tripodi © Sam Fritch Photography. Used with permission.
Image on page 54, used with permission from University of Minnesota Extension Publication #07421; Change: Loss, Opportunity and Resilience by Dr. Sharon M. Danes, Professor, University of Minnesota.
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Cover design and interior layout by Sara Streifel, Think Creative Design
Cara Tripodi dedicates this book to
Kathy Farley—your quiet, steady, and compassionate presence
inspired me personally and professionally. You are greatly missed.
Claudia Black dedicates this book to
Lorie Dwinell—you believed in me and championed me from
the start of my personal recovery and professional growth,
continuing to be by my side all of these years.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Chapter One: Claiming My Reality
Telling My Story: The Day My World Changed
Grappling with the Language of Sex Addiction
The Ripple Effect: Cost of Addiction in My Life
Bottom Lines: Nonnegotiable Boundaries
Developing a Strong Support System
The Road Ahead
Chapter Two: Turning Inward
Vision for Self
Living in Limbo
Defining Trauma Responses
Grieving the Betrayals
My Losses
Letters to Myself
My Fluctuating Feelings
Listening to My Body
Personal Strengths
Chapter Three: My Part of the Dance
A. Emotional Challenges
Stepping Out of Reaction into Action
Unraveling the Myths of Control
My Relationship with Anger
The Myth of Perfectionism
B. Perception Challenges
Coping or Defending: The Paradox of Facing Your Reality
Removing the Veil of Denial
Protecting the Illusion
Cloudy to Clear: Transforming Distorted Thinking
Magical Thinking: Challenging the Fantasy
Stepping Out of the Victim Role
Tolerating the Intolerable
C. Psychological Challenges
My Risky Behaviors
Other Emotional Concerns
Chapter Four: Recognizing the Role of Childhood Influences
Generational Impact
Adult Repetition of Abandonment
Replaying the Past
Family Tree
Knowing Your Emotional Self
Honoring Your Needs
Trusting Your Own Perceptions
Recognizing Unhealthy Boundaries
Willingness to Explore More
Chapter Five: Taking Charge of Your Life
Disclosure: Knowing the Scope of the Addiction
Finding Freedom with Healthy Boundaries
Decision to Stay or Leave
Rebuilding Healthy Intimacy
Internal Roadblocks to Recovery
Reconstructing Sexuality
Concerns for Children
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