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Автор: Thomas Esposito
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alive in God, whether through secular politics, religious devotion, or pranks on your family and friends. I have pondered what a privilege it must have been to be a guest in your home at Chelsea. The accounts of your dinners and evening entertainment are filled with delightful memories of music, laughter, poetry, hearty banter, and shenanigans done by the family pet monkey. Your children would have shamed me in a Latin contest, but I would have made a great effort to prove to you that my learning was not half lame. I would then have challenged you to prove the same! I have always envied your dear colleague Erasmus, who noted that you were a natural friend to all, indeed one “born for friendship”15—what a treasure it would have been to know you in the flesh!

      You would not be surprised, I suppose, that your legacy was largely forgotten for several hundred years in the church you loved following your death. To that bit of news, I imagine you quipping something to the effect that losing one’s head generally indicates a lack of popularity! Fortunately, the Catholic Church did eventually canonize you, though the event took place a full 400 years after your martyrdom.

      Yet that line of interpretation glosses over, I think, the more profound gift you offer to the women and men of today. In a sense, I lament the manner in which you are remembered. Your joyful family life, the legendary education of your children, and your brilliant work which ushered in the Renaissance of letters have all been upstaged, and inevitably so, by your heroic witness of courage and conscience. I am certainly grateful, nevertheless, that such a witness is available to us, however costly it was to yourself and your country. I think the most precious inheritance Catholics can receive from you today, especially those under your patronage, is the manner in which you readied yourself for the supreme moment of your witness. Your prayer-prepared courage, generated and stored over the course of an immensely blessed life, is most beautifully portrayed in your meditations entitled The Sadness of Christ.

      Your choice of Scripture to ponder at the end of your life is easy enough to understand. The thought of you poring over the sequence of Jesus’ agony in the garden, his betrayal, and the beginning of his trial while enduring an identical agony, bestows a great solemnity on your text. The beginning of Jesus’ passion narrative was the mirror in which you regarded your own passion, and I cannot imagine the loneliness you must have experienced as you entered into the same destiny as our Lord. How incredibly graced, though, is the good which came from both agonies—his to redeem the world from sin, yours to inspire generations until the resolution of that world’s woes and throes.

      As you sat in your Tower of London cell, praying with the accounts of Jesus’ words and deeds in the garden of Gethsemane, you seem to have created for yourself a detailed examination of conscience. I picture you in the garden, pinching yourself to stay awake with Christ as he discourses privately with the Father. I see you keeping your eyes open at all costs, lest the Lord return to ask you, as he did Simon Peter, “Are you sleeping?” (Matt 26:45).

      I cannot fathom the pressure you endured from your friends and family members, almost all of whom willingly made the oath, and many of whom, including your daughter Meg, pleaded with you to ignore the impediment of your conscience. They did not consider the oath to be the end of Catholicism in England or a violation of divine law as you did, but the sheer weight of their supplications buckled the resistance of virtually all other men of consequence in England. I have personally viewed the petition which your king, Henry VIII, sent to the Pope requesting a divorce so that he could marry Anne Boleyn. His petition was put on display in the Capitoline Museums during my studies in Rome. Attached to the brown parchment with eloquent script are the red seals of the great men of your day. By affixing their seals to this request, they affirmed the king’s right to the divorce, and later hailed him as head of the Church of England when he broke ranks with the Roman Pontiff. They were noblemen, members of Parliament, and bishops; you must have known most of them quite well. As I gazed upon that fateful piece of paper and the cracked seals, my mind turned to you and John Fisher, the only English bishop who refused to sign the oath and who, like yourself, laid down his life as a consequence.

      Even at this most terrible occasion, you did not abandon your sense of humor. While providing for yourself an examination of conscience within your commentary on Jesus’ agony, you gently chide your readers not only for sluggishness and sleepiness in prayer, but also for a lackadaisical approach to the sovereign Lord of the universe. I distinctly recall reading your list of mindless distractions which we indulge during prayer. When I scanned the lines containing your rant against picking one’s nose while praying, I found my own finger scouring the inner sanctum of a nostril, more attuned to the discovery of the next booger than the meditation you were hoping I would focus on! I chuckled heartily, and I think of you now whenever the gold-digging urge threatens to overpower me in church.