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Автор: Jane Beal
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Remember, after you English

      came to our shores, women pressed your cloth

      into the clay pots to make new designs.

      I am my mother’s pot, my flesh is

      her living clay, and you, John, have pressed your cloth

      into my fabled skin and made me new,

      as I, growing big-bellied with child,

      lay dead fish in your corn fields to make them grow

      for the boy I sing to when you call me

      Rebecca, the noose who snared you, and I

      call you Isaac when I hold you inside

      my soul still turning cartwheels by tide

      pools in Virginia, by rivers of water

      frothing white over darkened waves where

      the ocean meets Tenakomakah lands,

      where the ocean from the east meets the river

      from the west, north of Jamestown, where

      your people first settled, and I fed them

      corn and pumpkin seeds when they were dying.

      The dying lived, and you came, and brought me

      back to the King of England, who danced

      with me at a masque as Ben Jonson’s players

      revealed a vision of delight, harmony,

      and wonder, heralding a spring I will

      never see with you, my John, my Isaac:

      hold my hand in yours, my husband,

      for it is enough that our child shall live.

      SOR JUANA INES DE LA CRUZ SINGS OF A SWAN

      First Portrait

      When I was young, the painter came and painted me

      beautiful, a book in one hand, my other hand turned out

      as if waiting for You to take it and ask me to dance.

      But all my secrets were simmering inside me

      like spices—like cinnamon—or red pepper

      ground to powder and ready to burn your mouth.

      My desires were as sweet as a singing swan.

      Second Portrait

      I went away from the house where I was fostered

      and took refuge in a monastery dedicated to Saint Jerome,

      and he came again, that painter, and painted me:

      sitting in my black and white habit, a wall of books

      behind me, one open before me (not the Bible),

      my beads wound round my body and dripping down

      my shoulder, across my thigh, held in my hand,

      but easy to ignore in comparison

      to the oval portrait, like a shield of faith, upon my breast

      showing an angel with rainbow wings flying above

      someone kneeling, like Paul on the Damascus road, before

      the Power that changes us in the middle of our life’s path.

      Little did I know! All that would be asked of me

      by the Archbishop—my books, my music,

      my scientific instruments—for answering Sor Filotea.

      Yes, I confess, I said that a woman has as much

      a right as a man to learn to read and write, and to do it

      freely! But I was not free. I was bound by my vows.

      So I surrendered all.

      Third Portrait

      The painter came again and painted me before I died,

      one hand resting on the book of my own works, the other

      holding the breviary (for life is brief), while wearing

      my escudo, another oval painting upon my breast, this time showing a woman, an angel, and a dove

      descending from heaven and announcing that

      the new life had come.

      A PRAYER OF MARTHA BALLARD, MIDWIFE

      When the stillborn child won’t wake,

      when the breath I breathe into him doesn’t move him,

      when his mother’s blood is still pouring out,

      and I have to make a choice—

      Lord, have mercy.

      When the morning light comes in the window,

      when darkness flees before the dawn,

      when I walk outside in the tender mist,

      and tears gather in the well of my heart—

      Lord, have mercy.

      When I sleep and dream of heaven,

      when I wake and go to the baby’s funeral,

      when I comfort his mother and then return home

      only to receive word of a another woman in labor—

      Lord, have mercy.

      SONG OF SOJOURNER TRUTH

      Growing Up

      The Colonel thought he owned me

      just because my mama and daddy were slaves.

      His son thought so, too, and sold me

      when I was nine for a flock of sheep

      and a hundred dollars. That was back when

      they called me Belle, and I spoke only Dutch.

      The new man—calling himself Master Neely—

      he raped me everyday and beat me

      with a bundle of rods and sold me two years later

      to a tavern keeper. He sold me when I was eleven years old.

      The tavern keeper sold me to Dumont,

      and Dumont seemed kinder. I met Robert,

      a slave like me, on a neighboring farm,

      and I loved him. But the man who called

      himself Robert’s Master, he said no, you cain’t

      marry that girl down the road—because he knew

      he wouldn’t own our children, Dumont would.

      So he beat Robert good and hard for loving me,

      and then, Robert died. He just up and died

      from that beating and left me alone.

      My daughter Diana came after her daddy died.

      There she was in my arms, her sweet face,

      her mouth milk-wet, her eyes like Robert’s eyes

      when I looked down into her soul, and I could hear

      Robert laughing, like he was right there,

      like an angel come down to look over my shoulder

      at this little girl we made, and sometimes

      I felt his hands on my waist again, more

      than