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Автор: Karen C.L. Anderson
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because, like me, he asks his readers to consider looking inward and to take responsibility for themselves, and many mothers and daughters are not ready to hear or do that…I know because I used to be that daughter.)

      She continued, “You have to realize that I am both a mother and a daughter.”

      “Yes, I do realize that.”

      She went on to say that going no-contact (estrangement) is always wrong. I disagreed.

      She told me that her father had been a “complete nightmare” yet she “stuck with him.”

      I shared that it was only when I took time and space away from my mother in order to better know and understand myself, that I was able to reinitiate contact from a healthier place.

      She told me it was wrong of me. No matter what. I disagreed.

      I asked her to tell me about her family. She asked me about mine.

      She told me about her daughter who is choosing not to be in contact with her family. I told her a little bit about my relationship with my mother and the strained relationship she had with her mother.

      And just like that, we became two women on two different continents sharing Christmas Day in an unlikely way.

      Which isn’t to say we ended our correspondence on a happy note. She was scared, hurt, and angry. Her fear, hurt, and anger weren’t mine to address.

      But I could hold space for possibility.

      It was then that I knew I wanted to create guided journal for both mothers and adult daughters…for all women and anyone who identifies as a woman.

      D

      How many times have you said a version of one of the following phrases to yourself? “It stops with me! I won’t treat my daughter the way my mother treated me,” “My mother died, but she’s still controlling me from the grave,” “My daughter has changed. I no longer know who she is,” “I am so tired of living in reaction to my mother,” “She doesn’t respect me or my boundaries!”

      You’re not alone. Studies suggest that nearly 30 percent of women have been estranged from their mothers at some point, which suggests that the number of women who struggle in their relationship with their mother or daughter (but aren’t estranged) is even higher.

      It has been considered shameful and taboo to discuss the pain of dysfunctional mother-daughter issues outside of lofty clinical pathologies and personality disorders, unless it’s in a private support group where, often, the “support” keeps women stuck in painful stories, reactions, and patterns of behavior. In that paradigm, affected women are stuck conveying “lesser versions” of themselves, which, ironically, is often what happens between mothers and daughters who have a failing or dysfunctional relationship.

      What was considered normal and okay in past generations (using fear, shame, authoritarianism, punishment, “should-ing,” control, binary ways of thinking, and physical violence as parenting tools, not to mention the disallowance of being able to feel and express emotion) is now known to be abusive and traumatic.

      The toxic generational patterns I mention in the title of this book? Their roots run in patriarchy, misogyny, and white supremacy. This is the trauma that runs deep in our DNA. It is what was unconsciously passed down through our maternal lineages, and we now hold it in our bodies.

      This is what’s at the heart of most mother-daughter conflict.

      How we choose to heal individually is how we will heal collectively.

      Much, much love,

      Karen

      Who is this guided journal for?

      It’s for you if…

      •You struggle in your relationship with your mother and want it to be better.

      •You struggle in your relationship with your daughter…she’s changed, and you don’t understand her anymore.

      •You wish to no longer be in contact with your mother, without guilt.

      •You are estranged from your daughter, not by your choice.

      •You are estranged from your mother and you either no longer want to feel badly about it or want to reestablish contact but don’t know how.

      •You are the mother of a daughter and want to “break the cycle.”

      •She has died, and you have unresolved pain in regards to your relationship with her.

      Note: If you are actively processing trauma, some of the prompts and practices in this journal may be triggering. Please seek out therapy if this applies to you. The “Resources” section on page 149 includes the websites of organizations where you can find therapists and other practitioners who specialize in such modalities as EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing therapy), somatic experiencing, Internal Family Systems, and others.

      D

      This guided journal includes insights, prompts, and practices that will help you…

      •Access your own wisdom.

      •Better see and understand the painful patterns that have come to you and through you via your maternal lineage.

      •Heal those patterns so they no longer create suffering.

      •Have a relationship built on healthy interdependence rather than dysfunctional codependence (assuming she is capable, which she very well may not be and that is not your fault or your responsibility).

      •Set and maintain healthy boundaries.

      •Accept what is, as is, even if she isn’t ready for what you want.

      As you work your way through this guided journal, let yourself know what you know, want what you want, and not want what you don’t want.

      Don’t underestimate the simplicity of the prompts and practices. Each one builds on the previous one and represents your on-going evolution, guiding you to more of what you want in your life and relationships, not just with her, but with yourself and in the greater world.

      Writing is powerful, and it’s good for you. It helps you acknowledge, cope with, and resolve that which you struggle with. It’s both the medicine and the sugar.

      Writing clarifies, reduces stress, helps you solve problems from an intuitive, creative place, and helps you integrate what you’re learning. It’s one thing to consume information—it’s another to act on it.

      It takes courage to do this work. Intense emotions may come up as you make your way through the journal. You might find yourself feeling everything from guilt to anger to grief, but I hope you will also experience joy, laughter, and relief.

      Note: If doing any of these practices is uncomfortable or distressful in any way, stop. Also, know what I share in this book can be an effective companion to therapy, but it is not a replacement for it. If you are in therapy, you may want to share these practices with your therapist.

      Should I do this with her?

      No. You can, of course, but I suggest you do the work on your own, at least at first.

      Does she have to be alive?

      No. This isn’t so much about the two of you as it is about you making some choices about how you want to show up in the world. This is about your future, and not just in relation to her (whether she’s alive or not). If she is no longer here, shift the tense of the questions to suit the situation.

      I don’t want to have to talk to/see/interact