Gwen was hurt when Chris left her for a Princeton-educated lawyer, but in the wake of Robert’s death, all losses were relative. How, she thought, did she manage to attract such jerks? Why did she get involved with men who told her what she couldn’t do? Chris’s insults stayed with her, though, and she still felt them now.
But then she turned and caught sight of the mountains, the San Gabriels starting to the west and extending to the east, getting taller as they went. There was 10,064-foot Mount Baldy in the distance, and closer, Mount Wilson with its satellite spires, and closer still, Musgrove Point. Last spring, she had hiked to Musgrove Point with Devon and three kids, including Robert. It was the hardest hike she’d ever done. The trail was three miles up, two thousand feet of elevation gain. It was punishing, and Gwen would never have made it if Devon and Robert hadn’t pushed her along—cajoling, teasing, encouraging. On the top she’d taken the picture of Robert that now hung on her bulletin board.
They’d stayed an hour up there, eating lunch, taking in the view. From that high up she could see the buildings of downtown, the curve of the coast, the way the ocean hugged the land. How small the problems of people seemed from this perspective, how miniscule the neighborhoods and buildings. A few hearty wildflowers were still in bloom, and she was lifted by their beauty. I’m so happy to be alive, Gwen remembered thinking. She might have even said it out loud.
Ten days later, Robert was dead, and part of what tortured her in those first confused weeks was that his death had come so soon after this day, when all the world seemed well. While she had been exhilarated, he must have been miserable, already making plans. She would have said so much more that day if she had suspected what was coming. She hadn’t even had a chance to tell him how much he meant to her.
“Gorgeous, isn’t it?” someone said, and Gwen turned to find Todd standing next to her. She didn’t know how long he’d been there.
“Yes,” she replied. “It’s amazing how much you can see from here.”
“When I was driving up, I just kept looking from one view to the next. That’s part of why I was late.”
“Where do you live?” she asked.
“Over on the Westside. I didn’t even know this neighborhood was here.”
Gwen felt a twinge of distaste. But this guy, whatever his limits, was making an effort to be friendly, so she would try to do the same. For a moment she wondered if she should have signed on with a professional guiding service, maybe even for a women-only trek—but the descriptions she’d found on the Internet had put her off: Hiking and Journaling for Inner Peace, one of them said. Another promised, Find Yourself in Nature! But she wasn’t going on this trip to find herself. She was going to find the mountains.
“Okay, kids. Ready to go?” asked Tracy.
“Let’s do it!” said Oscar, grinning.
And then there was the awkwardness of who would sit where, which Todd solved by saying, “Why don’t you ladies ride in front?”
They all seemed to understand that, whatever the arrangement, Tracy would be driving. And so the men got in back, Todd directly behind the driver’s seat and Oscar behind Gwen. Tracy took a deep breath and smiled, her energy so palpable it seemed to light the whole car.
“Ready, captain?” Oscar asked, and Tracy nodded.
“Ready.” She turned the key in the ignition, put the car into gear, and drove off down the hill.
Chapter Five
Oscar
As they headed north on the 2, and then west on the 210, Oscar stared at the huge swath of bare brown mountain. Three years ago, the Station Fire had set half the range aflame. During the day, dense smoke formations like nuclear clouds had loomed over the peaks; at night, the dark shapes were lit bright orange. Bears, deer, and mountain lions had fled down from the mountains, some ending up in suburban backyards. When the fire was finally out three weeks later, over 160,000 acres had burned and two firefighters were dead.
“All that damage,” Gwen remarked. She was sitting rigidly, fingers drumming her thigh. “It looks like a giant blanket’s been draped over the mountains.”
“It does,” agreed Oscar. A nice woman, and not bad looking, with a pleasant shape, he thought—but she was in way over her head. He’d watched her struggle in Tracy’s class with some of the tougher exercises and wasn’t sure she could handle this hike.
“They’ve finally just opened up some more of the trails,” Tracy said. “And it’s about time too. I mean, Echo Mountain’s nice, but it’s gotten so crowded. It’s like running at the friggin’ Rose Bowl.” Tracy was driving fast, weaving in and out of traffic. Every few minutes she reached over to take a gulp of coffee from her travel mug.
“The hikes out of Chantry Flats are cool,” Oscar said, trying not to glance at the speedometer. Chantry Flats had an old-time pack station, complete with mules, goats, and horses. He liked to take Lily sometimes, to see the animals.
“Mount San Gorgonio is awesome too,” Tracy said. “I was just up there last weekend, and there was still snow at the top. Best thing you can do down here to train for altitude.”
Now Gwen turned to her. “Train for altitude? How high up are we going?”
Tracy waved her off. “We’ll be fine. We’ll top out at Green Pass at about 11,500 feet, but not until the last day, so we’ll have time to acclimatize.”
Something occurred to Oscar. “If there’s snow on San Gorgonio, won’t there be snow on our route?”
“It’ll be fine,” Tracy said again. “There wasn’t much snow last winter and most of it’s probably melted off by now. If not, we’ll just make our way over it.”
“Is that safe?” Gwen asked.
“Don’t worry, it’s no big deal. Not like Rainier or even Shasta. You need crampons and ice axes for those, to keep from sliding down a slope or into a crevasse.”
“Sounds dangerous,” Oscar said.
“That’s part of the point, buddy. That’s part of the point. Climbs like that, one wrong step and you’re toast. You have to focus every second. But there’s nothing like a bit of risk to make you feel alive.”
This didn’t make Oscar feel better, but he decided to let it go. She was right—what was the big deal about a little snow? As they merged onto the 5 north and skirted up between the hills, he felt the first real sense of escaping, a sheer, uncomplicated joy at leaving his job behind. He was heading off to a place where income-to-loan ratios meant nothing, where no one cared about the best way to stage a house for a showing, where no one was even thinking about the steady drop in home values over the last five years, and where he wouldn’t see his empty, unfinished houses. In the mountains, he’d have no smartphone, no sharp clothes or fast car to fall back on. He’d have to depend on his endurance and grit, and if he got into a scrape, it would be his own guts and thinking that would have to get him out of it. He could do this, he knew it; he was up for the challenge. Coach Eric from the gym could kiss his ass.
“So, Todd,” Oscar said now, “have you hiked or backpacked much?”
Todd looked startled that someone had spoken to him.
“More when I was younger,” he managed. “I used to camp with my dad. But not so much as an adult, to tell you the truth. I go for hikes with the kids sometimes out in the Palisades or Malibu.”
Of course, Oscar thought. The Westsiders go farther west. This guy was probably soft.
“Most of my workouts these days are with Tracy,” Todd continued. “I went to SportZone for physical therapy last year