The Yellow Wallpaper (Wisehouse Classics - First 1892 Edition, with the Original Illustrations by Joseph Henry Hatfield). Charlotte Perkins Gilman

can feel it.

      I even said so to John one moonlight evening, but he said what I felt was a draught, and shut the window.

      I get unreasonably angry with John sometimes. I’m sure I never used to be so sensitive. I think it is due to this nervous condition.

      But John says if I feel so, I shall neglect proper self-control; so I take pains to control myself—before him, at least, and that makes me very tired.

      I don’t like our room a bit. I wanted one downstairs that opened on the piazza and had roses all over the window, and such pretty old-fashioned chintz hangings! but John would not hear of it.

      He said there was only one window and not room for two beds, and no near room for him if he took another.

      He is very careful and loving, and hardly lets me stir without special direction.

      I have a schedule prescription for each hour in the day; he takes all care from me, and so I feel basely ungrateful not to value it more.

      He said we came here solely on my account, that I was to have perfect rest and all the air I could get. “Your exercise depends on your strength, my dear,” said he, “and your food somewhat on your appetite; but air you can absorb all the time.” So we took the nursery at the top of the house.