There is no point whispering after Sassy’s noisy welcome. “Yes, ma’am!” As much as I want to stay in my room and devour the chocolate, I meet Liz by the front door. My jaw clenches as soon as I see Cherish standing next to her. Cherish has applied a fresh layer of magenta lip gloss. Sick. Dub’s mouth touched those lips. She smirks at me as if she can read my mind.
Liz may have been driving around looking for me, but she doesn’t seem frantic. When she’s stressed, she has a tendency to tug at her gray, short hair until it spikes, but right now her hair is perfectly slicked back. “Oh, good. Your mom was resting, so I left work early to pick Cherish up from school. She called because she missed the bus looking for you. Care to explain?”
“I . . . I, uh . . .” What the French fries? Cherish was looking for me?
After tossing her backpack to the ground, Cherish clears her throat. Her heavily lined brown eyes squint, as if daring me to say something about what happened this afternoon. Liz doesn’t have a clue about the mind games Cherish plays with me.
“Someone said they saw you running from school. Did you fail a test again or something?” Cherish asks, sounding completely sincere.
“What’s this?” Mom asks from the hallway.
Why does she have to wake up now? Mom wraps her bathrobe over her T-shirt and jeans. My mother and I lock eyes. She has dark rings underneath them. Can she tell that I’ve puked and bawled? I don’t want to stress her out any more than she already is. “Uh, you know, it was a warm day and you, uh, keep talking about being healthy, so I figured I’d walk home.”
“Good idea,” Cherish says way too enthusiastically.
I glare at her, and before I have a chance to say something back, Mom says, “Next time you choose an adventure, let the rest of your family know.”
The word “family” stings. “Yes, ma’am.”
Without saying anything else, Liz heads to the kitchen to brew some peppermint tea. Mom trails her.
I storm off to my room, but Cherish whispers loudly, “You never told me that Dub is such a good kisser.”
“Shut up, you—”
“Shh—you don’t want your mommies to hear you say a bad word.”
“Shut up!”
“Girls?” Mom calls out. Her immune system may be weak, but her hearing isn’t.
“Nothing,” Cherish and I answer together.
When I slam the bedroom door, my U.S. history and French textbooks slide off my desk. Where is my iPod?
I dig around on my desk, smashing a dried red rose. I kick the French book, Français: Bienvenue. I know Cherish stole my iPod. She probably sold it like she hocked my DVDs she stole. She didn’t give me the money she made off of them either. Mom and Liz reimbursed me, but that’s not the point.
A million curse words run through my mind, all too horrible to say out loud.
I’m not going to take her crap anymore.
NO!
MORE!
CHICKEN!
TURD!
THE DAY AFTER THE MELTDOWN
Friday, April 18
IF LUPUS WERE CONTAGIOUS, I would’ve faked sick like I had the inflammatory autoimmune disorder this morning to ditch school. Oh, my joints! My skin! My fever! But I wasn’t going to let Cherish win that battle. She thinks I’m just accepting things and sulking like I normally do.
“Everything will be fine, just wait and see,” my best friend, Delia, says as we walk down the hall together. But the only thing I see is about five people gathered around my locker.
Dub is scribbling something on the face of it. “What are you doing?” I yell. First the kiss, and now this? The crowd turns to look at me. A jerk named Gunner points his phone in my direction and takes a photo. Delia flicks him off.
When I’m closer, Dub moves in front of the locker in an attempt to block the black marks scrawled all over it. “I didn’t want you to see this, especially after what happened yesterday,” he says. I step close to him so I can get a better look at what he’s trying to protect me from.
Delia gasps.
I’ve been friends with Dub for so long that part of me wants to bury my head against his clean, familiar smelling body and forget all of this. And then I see a drawing of a large bull with a ring through its nose and the letters “CALLI IS ABULLD Y.”
Dub had used his pen to cross out the “k” and the “e” at the end of the sentence.
Gunner laughs and takes another cell pic. We’ve never gotten along. . . . Did he write this? I doubt he’d be documenting my humiliation right in my face if he had, plus there’s a more likely suspect. Cherish stayed late after school yesterday, supposedly looking for me. I’m not sure how she could’ve pulled off defacing my locker with teachers roaming the halls, but the girl’s sneaky and has motive. She always says how weird it is that I have two moms, and how I’m probably a “lez like them.”
This means war.
As if two pictures weren’t enough, Gunner snaps another. I can only imagine where these photos will end up. On the Internet for the entire world to see I’m sure.
It’s like Dub can read my mind because he straightens up and tells Gunner, “Put that freaking thing away.”
Gunner scowls in return. “Or what?”
Dub responds by shoving him. Gunner’s phone flies out of his hand, and Dub dives after it. He seizes the phone and presses a few buttons.
Delia’s mouth is still hanging open, and the rest of the students around us back off like they’re uncertain what Dub might do next. I’m confident the pictures are long gone and Gunner won’t dare take another. I appreciate that Dub’s looking out for me, but half the campus has probably already seen the damage. Not to mention the damage Dub caused me yesterday.
“Give me my phone back,” Gunner says in a demanding voice. I notice that when he extends his hand, it’s shaking the slightest bit.
Dub makes a fist around Gunner’s phone and raises his arm like he’s going to toss it down the hallway.
I pull at his elbow. “Dub, don’t.” His skin feels just as familiar as it smells.
“What’s going on?” an approaching teacher asks.
Dub hands Gunner’s phone back like there was never an issue between the two of them and explains the situation. “Someone messed with my girlfriend’s locker.”
Gunner doesn’t say a thing. A few other people make comments to support what Dub has said, but their voices fade as I replay Dub’s comment with an emphasis on the word “girlfriend.” He still thinks of me as his girlfriend after what happened yesterday?
Before I have a chance to mull this over, the teacher moves forward to inspect the graffiti. This teacher has no idea who I am, which makes the humiliation even worse.
I sneak away, and Delia follows. I glance back at Dub and we lock eyes for a moment. It’s hard to read his expression, but I want him to still care about me as much as he used to.
Delia and I stay in the bathroom even though the tardy bell has just rung. She’s coloring on fresh eyeliner and eye shadow for me after my first application smeared off post–locker incident.
“I can’t believe Dub was so pissed!” Delia says.