"There, rub away as hard as you like, you won't rub that off in a hurry. Now let us see. A letter for Cobbey. Stand up, Cobbey. Oh! Cobbey's grandmother is dead, and his uncle John has took to drinking, which is all the news his sister sends, except eighteen pence, which will just pay for that broken square of glass. Mrs. Squeers, my dear, will you take the money?
"Graymarsh, he's the next. Stand up, Graymarsh. Graymarsh's aunt is very glad to hear he's so well and happy, and[Pg 108] sends her respectful compliments to Mrs. Squeers and thinks she must be an angel. She likewise thinks that Mr. Squeers is too good for this world, but hopes he may long be spared to carry on the business. Would have sent the two pairs of stockings as desired, but is short of money, so forwards a tract instead, and hopes that Graymarsh will put his trust in Providence. Hopes, above all, that he will study
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in everything to please Mr. and Mrs. Squeers, and look upon them as his only friends; and that he will love master Squeers, and not
object to sleeping five in a bed, which no Christian should. Ah! a delightful letter. Very affecting indeed.
"Mobbs!--Mobbs's motherin-law took to her bed on hearing that he wouldn't eat fat, and has been very ill ever since. She wishes to know, by an early post, where he expects to go to if he quarrels with his vittles; and with what feelings he could turn up his nose at the cow's liver broth, after his good master had asked a blessing on it. This was told her in the London newspapers--not by Mr. Squeers, for he's too kind and good to set anybody against anybody. She is sorry to find he is discontented, which is sinful and hor-rid, and hopes Mr. Squeers will flog him into a happier state of mind. With which view she has also stopped his half penny a week pocket-money, and given a double-bladed knife with a cork-screw in it to the missionaries, which she had bought on purpose for him. A sulky state of feeling won't do. Cheerfulness and contentment must be kept up. Mobbs, come to me!"
Mobbs moved slowly towards the desk, rubbing his eyes in anticipation of good cause for doing so; and he soon afterwards retired, with as good cause as a boy need have.
This business dispatched, a few slovenly lessons were performed, and Squeers retired to his fireside, leaving Nicholas to take care of
the boys in the school-room which was very cold, and where a meal of bread was served out shortly after dark.
There was a small stove at that corner of the room which was[Pg 109] nearest the master's desk, and by it Nicholas sat down, de-pressed and self-degraded.
As he was absorbed in his meditations, he all at once encountered the upturned face of Smike, who was on his knees before the stove, picking a few stray cinders from the hearth and planting them on the fire. He had paused to steal a look at Nicholas, and when he saw that he was observed, shrank back, as if expecting a blow.
"You need not fear me. Are you cold?" "N-n-o."
"You are shivering."
"I'm not cold. I'm used to it."
There was such an obvious fear of giving offense in his manner, and he was such a timid, broken-spirited creature, that Nicholas could not help exclaiming, "Poor fellow!"
"Oh dear, oh dear! my heart will break. It will, it will!" said Smike. "Hush! Be a man; you are nearly one by years. God help you!"
"By years! Oh dear, dear, how many of them! How many of them since I was a little child, younger than any that are here now! Where are they all?"
"Of whom do you speak? Tell me."
"My friends, myself--my--oh! what sufferings mine have been!" "There is always hope."
"No, no; none for me. Do you remember the boy that died here?" "I was not here, you know."
"Why, I was with him at night, and when it was all silent, he cried no more for friends he wished to come and sit with him, but began to see faces round his bed that came from home. He said they smiled, and talked to him; and he died at last lifting his head to kiss them. Do you hear?"
[Pg 110]"Yes, yes," rejoined Nicholas.
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"What faces will smile on me when I die? Who will talk to me in those long nights? They cannot come from home; they would frighten me if they did, for I shouldn't know them. Pain and fear, pain and fear for me, alive or dead. No hope, no hope!"
The bell rang to bed; and the boy, subsiding at the sound into his usual listless state, crept away as if anxious to avoid notice. It was with a heavy heart that Nicholas soon afterwards--no, not retired, there was no retirement there--followed to his dirty and crowded dormitory.
FOOTNOTE:
[13] Adapted by E. P. Trueblood from "Nicholas Nickleby." THE SECRET OF DEATH
Edwin Arnold
"She is dead!" they said to him; "come away; Kiss her and leave her,--thy love is clay!"
They smoothed her tresses of dark-brown hair; On her forehead of stone they laid it fair;
Over her eyes, that gazed too much, They drew the lids with a gentle touch; With a tender touch they closed up well The sweet thin lips that had secrets to tell; About her brows and beautiful face
They tied her veil and her marriage lace,
And drew on her feet her white silk shoes-- Which were the whitest no eye could choose-- And over her bosom they crossed her hands. "Come away!" they said; "God understands." And there was silence, and nothing there
But silence, and scents of eglantere,[Pg 111] And jasmine, and roses, and rosemary;
And they said, "As a lady should lie, lies she." And they held their breath till they left the room, With a shudder, to glance at its stillness and gloom. But he who loved her too well to dread
The sweet, the stately, the beautiful dead,-- He lit his lamp, and took the key
And turned it,--alone again,--he and she. He and she; but she would not speak,
Though he kissed, in the old place, the quiet cheek. He and she; yet she would not smile,
Though he called her the name she loved erewhile. He and she; still she did not move
To any one passionate whisper of love.
Then he said: "Cold lips and breasts without breath, Is there no voice, no language of death?
"Dumb to the ear and still to the sense, But to heart and to soul distinct, intense? "See now; I will listen with soul, not ear; What was the secret of dying, dear?
"Was it the infinite wonder of all
That you ever could let life's flower fall?
"Or was it a greater marvel to feel
The perfect calm o'er the agony steal?
"Was the miracle greater to find how deep
Beyond all dreams sank downward that sleep?[Pg 112] "Did life roll back its records, dear,
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And show, as they say it does, past things clear? "And was it the innermost heart of the bliss
To find out so, what a wisdom love is? "Oh, perfect dead! Oh, dead most dear, I hold the breath of my soul to hear!
"I listen as deep as to horrible hell,
As high as to heaven, and you do not tell. "There must be pleasure in dying, sweet, To make you so placid from head to feet! "I would tell you, darling, if I were dead,
And 'twere your hot tears upon my brow shed,-- "I would say, though the Angel of Death had laid His sword on my lips to keep it unsaid.
"You should not ask vainly, with streaming eyes, Which of all deaths was the chiefest surprise, "The very strangest and suddenest thing
Of all the surprises that dying must bring." Ah, foolish world! Oh, most kind dead!
Though he told me, who will believe it was said? Who will believe that he heard her say,
With the sweet, soft voice, in the dear old way: "The utmost wonder is this,--I hear
And see you, and love you, and kiss