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Автор: Dave Margoshes
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      Biologists have found that more than 1,300 species of animals will make meals of their own families.

      —Newspaper Item

      Deepest night and the growls

       you wake to are of the belly

       not the throat, that ache

       ripples from the gut rather

       than from that mythical heart

       the songwriters celebrate,

       muscle pulsating, waiting

       to be fed.

       Heartburn is a condition

       of digestion, not emotion.

      Still, the temptation

       to spin on spine’s axis

       to your partner defenceless

       in sleep is strong, nibbling

       at lips that cannot protest,

       gorging yourself on willing flesh,

       blind mother turning in the nest

       driven by something deeper

       than hunger, devouring

       placentas of love.

      Under a tree, I sit

       growing roots, listening

       to the immense noise, opening

       my eyes to light

       without end.

       The sun splinters, a narrow

       man comes down

       the road, stops

       to listen, then lopes

       the dusty way he’s come.

       The road is empty, the sky

       a hole letting in

       the promised menace.

      The iron ring of his foot

       on the cobblestones, a circle

       in a pool of water. I wanted to be a good man he cried as he fell but only the air heard, the thin cruel air. So quickly then this eggshell shatters. But what shall we do with this dark?

      after the fair

       we took down the tents

       wiped the cotton candy

       from our feet

       and washed our hands

       in a stream of water

       from a cold iron pipe

       the livestock had kissed.

      the sun was going down

       and the children were gone

       leaving deflated snowmen

       of torn tickets

       and apple sticks

       in the swamp

       where the midway had raged.

      we walked hand in hand

       the wind rippling soft

       at the ribbons on our breasts

       swirling the eddies of gold

       left behind by judges

       who should have known better

       having known us so long.

      well there’s always next year

       and the years after that

       rolling like meadows

       across the horizon

       to bring down the sky

       and it’s not the winning

       that matters

       but the way we die.

       for Mickey

      balancing on the high

       wire, your parents’ world

       dizzy at your feet, ants

       in a cage charlie chaplining

       below, you feel your stomach

       blossom against your heart,

       your heart itself soaring

       through air without benefit

       of a net, your eyes blurred

       not from tears but the speed

       of your blood finding its own

       balance, its own

       way

      jumping off the high wire you find yourself falling deliriously into yourself

      If Mullin’s Hardware is really

       the centre of the city

       as the old-timers say, forget

       the maps, the city plan,

       then what of the Centre

       of the Arts, Queensbury Downs,

       what about Market Square?

       They’re deserted tonight, empty

       as the shells of gypsy moths, their

       eyes alight with visions of the city

       trembling in their wake, a naked

       city, its bum bare as the day

       it was born.

      Tonight, the city’s pulse runs

       ragged along 13th, a red current

       of light leading—where else?—but

       to Mullin’s, not just the centre

       of the city but the universe,

       to hell with the maps

       and compasses, to Mullin’s,

       where a woman in a red bandanna

       is dancing alone in the shadow

       of the cathedral, its hands thrown up

       in joy, her eyes filled with light

       reflected from the sputtering streetlamp,

       her feet just barely touching

       the ground. You and I

       are getting to know each other

       in ways they haven’t dreamed of

       at the track or the Superstore,

       in ways explained for a dime

       in the hardware, third aisle

       at the end.

      buddy, back east

       time goes back

       and there ain’t no way

       to stop it

      out here

       time matters more

       due to the growing

       and shape of things

      take the time

       yourself

       to think it over

       and come around

      life