Finally satisfied with the result, he brushed a few flakes of dandruff from the shoulders of his navy sports coat and regarded himself for a moment. He thought he looked old and heavy, and he was heavy, over two-fifteen now. There were pouches beneath his blue eyes, dark circles, bloodshot eyes. His face was evolving, morphing into his father’s face. The same width, the same creases at the jowls, the same wrinkles across the forehead from a lifetime of scowling. He leaned in to check his teeth, and they looked the way old people’s teeth begin to look: narrowing, dying. He hadn’t slept well, his mind working through the coming events of the day. It was to be a day of reckoning. At last, a beacon at the end of the long dark road. All of the work, all of the tears, all of the silent angst bottled under pressure. Two years of bulldog determination, countless hours of unpaid overtime logged pouring over files, drawing the connections. He had pushed it as far as he could push it, working angles from the sidelines, and the doggedness had brought him to the point of being written up for accessing files without authorization. The files concerned the murder investigation of his son, so Aoki had let the infraction begin and end at her desk. It was one cop doing another cop a favour. Any father would be interested in his son’s murder investigation, more so if the father happened to be the police. But even so, McKelvey believed there was some word out there about his level of interest in the whole thing, the way he came at things. He was aware that some people spoke of him in a certain light.
He passed through the kitchen and downed the last of his cold black coffee. He set the mug in the sink and grabbed his long coat from its hook in the hall. He was warming up his old red Mazda pickup when he was startled by a knock on the window. He turned and looked into the face of his neighbour, Carl Seeburger, who was standing there with his wispy silver hair glowing like a baby’s down in the back light of the rising dawn. The old German had been their neighbour for just eighteen months now, having replaced a longtime and affable family by the name of Dewar. For eighteen months, he and McKelvey and some of the others on the street had battled sporadically, and sometimes loudly, over the trio of dogs that Seeburger kept, without much apparent attention, in his backyard. McKelvey rolled the window down without smiling.
“Did I forget my lunch bag again?” McKelvey said.
Seeburger’s lips began to work and, as always, a tiny white froth appeared at the corners of his mouth. He crossed his long arms across his chest and said, although it sounded more like a direct accusation, “Did you call the city about my dogs?”
“Jesus Christ. It’s seven o’clock, Carl, you should be in bed,” McKelvey said, and immediately began to roll the window back up, move his foot to the clutch.
Seeburger, dressed in faded grey work pants that were a little too short, and a worn red and blue flannel shirt and suspenders, stepped closer to the truck. He was a tall man, and he had to bend down to level his face with the window. McKelvey caught a whiff of strong cheese and wool. Even though he had apparently been living in the country for forty years now, Seeburger’s accent was still thick and harsh. Is sounded to McKelvey like a machine cutting and splicing. McKelvey believed it spoke to the man’s stubborn refusal to go with the flow.
“Just because you work for the city, you think that gives you the right to use your connections to hassle tax-paying citizens? This is a free country, Mr. McKelvey, and I will not be treated like a criminal. If I choose to own dogs, that is my right. Protected by the Constitution. And if you have any more problems with my dogs, I would wish that you would be man enough to address me directly rather than use your connections to have me harassed by the city by-law office.”
It was the right morning, or it was the alignment of the stars. Or it was just the way McKelvey felt lately. As though he were functioning in a sort of suspended animation. Everything was as in a dream, and he couldn’t think anything through with clarity. Anything could happen. McKelvey moved his right hand to ensure the stick shift was in park, then popped his seatbelt and was out of the vehicle standing toe to toe with his neighbour. Seeburger stepped back, his eyes blinking with anticipation.
“Listen, let’s get something straight here,” McKelvey said and pointed an index finger. “I hate your fucking dogs, Carl. I really do. I wish death upon their ugly howling heads every night when I close my eyes and try to fall asleep in a neighbourhood that until eighteen months ago was a goddamned piece of heaven. Secondly, I don’t have any connections with the bylaw office, and even if I did, I wouldn’t require the use of said connections, because I would take care of things myself. I’m not beyond getting my hands dirty. In fact, I enjoy it from time to time.”
“Oh, yes? Is that a threat, Mr. McKelvey?”
“Oh no, it’s not a threat,” McKelvey said, “it’s a guarantee.” Then he opened the door and held it there for a moment before sliding behind the wheel. Something within himself, a coiled spring or a bottled surge, wanted his neighbour to do something wild and crazy, take a swing perhaps. McKelvey saw himself connecting with that big Teutonic chin, a blow for glory, a blow for every goddamned neighbour within earshot of those barking sons of bitches. His gaggle of thick sausages was already curled into a tight fist, jaw clenched. He looked up at the morning beginning to spread across the skyline in a deep, dark orange of early winter, then looked back to the old man standing before him, and said, “You know, Carl, it’s a very thin line. A very thin line.”
“What is?” Seeburger said.
“The precise location,” McKelvey said, “where your right to own dogs intersects with my right to a peaceful sleep.”
McKelvey closed the door and put his seatbelt on. Seeburger stood there wagging a finger and said in a hoarse voice, “I’ll find out who called the city. That is my right as a tax-paying citizen!”
“Have a nice day,” McKelvey said, smiling broadly and waving as he rolled away.
He felt like a tourist at the office these days, somebody passing through. The police headquarters had at one time been located in a little shithole over on Jarvis Street, but now it was next to a Starbucks on College. There remained very little of the “old” building McKelvey knew from his first days on the force. Back then, the interview rooms were choked blue with smoke, and more than a few lockers in the change room held a pint of rum or brandy tucked beneath a pair of dirty gym shorts for an end-of-shift “happy hour”. And women were just beginning to make their bold entry into the strange universe that was “The Police”. Hard to believe. A lifetime ago and just the other day.
Now the interview rooms were painted in soothing pastels based on psychological consultations, and McKelvey’s boss was a thirty-eight-year-old woman named Inspector Tina Aoki. A university graduate with degrees in criminology and law, Aoki was right now working on her own time towards some sort of Masters. While many of his silver-haired peers were genuinely frustrated, perhaps even angered, by the seeming tendency to put greater stock in framed degrees over hours spent in the blood and filth of the streets, McKelvey took it all in stride. He accepted the fact that everything in life, if given time, changes to the point where you eventually don’t recognize it. We look upon our lives in a sort of warped hindsight, he knew, everything taken in our own unique context, set against our own criteria. He knew any tradesman was declared obsolete if he didn’t keep up with the latest tools. The knowledge didn’t prevent a man from longing, from time to time, for the old days, the old ways.
Detective-Constable Charlie McKelvey made his second coffee of the morning at the refreshment stand in the Hold-Up Squad. This place had been his home for five years now, having transferred from a half dozen years on the Fraud Squad and, before that, a lifetime on the beat across four divisions that spanned the full spectrum of a city that never stopped growing. It was only the nature of the crime that changed with each transfer. The people he dealt with were invariably the same; whether he was pulling a guy over for running a red light, or forcing a known drug dealer to empty the pockets of his cargo pants across the hood of a cruiser up at Jane and Finch, everybody thought he was born last Sunday. They believed with