I turned away from the cat and the tent, firmly convincing myself that I didn’t need to look inside it. Instead I walked through the camp, calling out as I went, more to reassure myself of some semblance of normalcy than expecting an answer. At one point I thought I heard an animal creeping through the forest, but when I stopped and listened there was nothing and when I glanced back at the cat it seemed unperturbed. Probably just a coon. Lots of coon sign about.
I called out again and walked down to the shore, the cat silently watching me from its position near the tent. The land jutted out into a peninsula forming one end of the bay, and although I couldn’t see our canoe I knew it was there, just around the corner. I turned back then and looked along the shore and almost missed it, so well did it blend in with the driftwood on the beach. The warm wooden sides of a cedar strip canoe lay hidden among some bushes as if it had been thrown there, its stern line still dragging in the water, the bowline pulled taut from the base of the tree where it was tied, as if it had been yanked or blown by the wind. On the bow there was a white silhouette of a really badly drawn eagle in full flight looking as though it were trying to flee the confines of the canoe.
Where was the guy? If his canoe was still here but the food in his pack had gone rotten and the awning of his tent was flapping enough to drive someone nuts, where was the person who owned all this? As long as there had been no canoe I had almost managed to convince myself that whoever had been here had left in a big hurry in their canoe. In which case it hadn’t been my concern. No more.
The forlorn feel of the place, the juxtaposition of the obvious care and pride put into the site with the equally obvious neglect, was disquieting. I glanced uneasily at the cat and the green tent, its tarp still flapping ominously in the gentle breeze, and I knew I had no choice. I approached the tent the way I used to approach my dentist’s office: with great reluctance.
The cat rubbed against my leg as I squatted in front of the tent looking for the zipper to unzip the door. Maybe the guy was a heavy sleeper and had just not heard me yelling out. A really heavy sleeper.
“Hello?”
My voice sounded tiny, hesitant, and almost made me jump as it garrotted the silence. But there was no response. I fumbled with the zipper on the tent door, and when I got it opened halfway the cat pushed its head in ahead of me and went inside. I carefully pulled the tent flap back, peered inside, and then reeled back in sudden panic as something moved on the far side of the dimly lit tent. I backed away, my eyes glued to the door. There was a squeal and a nasty wet gurgle and the cat suddenly slipped out, a dying chipmunk in its jaws, and disappeared around the side of the tent. My heart slowed to a sprint and I approached the tent again, angry at myself for being frightened by a chipmunk.
The inside of the tent was musty and damp with the stale air of disuse. As my eyes adjusted to the light I saw the bunched-up shape of a large down sleeping bag and two substantial foam pads that served as a very comfortable mattress. This guy sure knew how to camp in luxury.
I scanned the area where I had seen the chipmunk move and saw the remains of a Mars chocolate bar tucked into a pocket on the side of the tent. Right below it was the telltale hole in the tent where the chipmunk had chewed its way in to death. A small palm-sized black book with an orange slash on the cover and a man’s name printed across it lay close by as if dropped there by accident. An expensive-looking camera lay on top of the sleeping bag, partly out of its case, and an empty black plastic film canister lay beside it, as if someone had just loaded the camera and been interrupted. Nothing here to say what had become of the owner.
I backed out of the tent and let the flap drop behind me as I breathed in fresh air. I saw the cat sitting near the mess tent, its tail flicking lazily from side to side as it licked its paws. Its cool aloofness was beginning to give me the creeps.
I shivered. A warm snug campsite was warm and snug only when filled with a human body. Like an empty house it loses its warmth and humanity the minute its people leave it behind. It loses its soul. There was no soul here now, only the tantalizing potential of soul. Where was the owner?
I surveyed the campsite one last time, then followed the trail back to the glade and the dangling food pack. I resisted the sudden urge to look behind me as I skirted the glade and found the trail I’d seen earlier that would lead me back to the portage trail. I hadn’t walked very far when I rounded a bend in the trail just where it merged with the portage trail and the stench hit me like a physical blow. I stopped and then I saw it, a large formless shape lying to one side of the trail, silent, mute, and threatening in its inevitability. And I saw what I didn’t want to see. Sticking out of the heap, white, flaccid, and bloated in the strong summer sun, was a single human finger curled into a miniature fist of death.
I stumbled away from the body, the nausea coming in waves that touched and sickened not only my stomach but also my mind. A million whirling thoughts crowded into my brain, pulling and twisting it like a Chinese puzzle. The sun shone down through the trees and the birds still called sweetly, but for one human being life was now over and there was nothing to mark the passing of whoever it had been; someone who had once had hopes and dreams, now gone. The smell of the hot sun on warm earth enveloped me and I breathed in the freshness of air not touched by death. I sank to my knees and threw up.
chapter three
“Ryan! Ryan!” My voice came out sounding like the croaking rasp of a cricket. Why is it that when you really need your voice it so often betrays you?
Ryan was lying slumped against the tree where I’d left him sound asleep, months ago it seemed.
“Ryan!” This time I put more force behind my voice but it still croaked, so I leaned over and grabbed his shoulder, the nausea rising again inside me so that I let go quickly and straightened up.
Ryan grunted and slowly propped himself up on one arm and looked at me, his eyes taking a long time to focus. Suddenly he sat up and rubbed them as if to clear away an unpleasant vision, and then he looked at me again.
“What’s up, Cordi? Jesus, you look awful,” he said. “What’s wrong? What’s the matter?”
I couldn’t seem to find any words that would work. My tongue felt thick and fuzzy and trying to make it perform balletic manoeuvres with words seemed impossible.
“What’s wrong?” Ryan asked in growing alarm. He stood up, gripped me by the shoulders. Nothing like a concerned brother to loosen my tongue.
“There’s a dead guy just off the portage trail, or what’s left of him,” I squawked. “Near where you took the photo.”
“‘Dead guy,’ as in human dead guy?”
I nodded. Ryan didn’t say anything at all, just reached out instinctively and hugged me.
“Or dead woman,” I added. “The animals have got at the body. There’s not much left to recognize,” I said into his armpit. “I don’t even know if it’s male or female it’s all so bloated and covered in grubs and twigs.”
When Ryan didn’t respond I pulled away and looked at him. He just stood there looking dumbly back at me, his jaw hanging loose, his eyebrows raised in an I-hear-you-but-I-don’t-want-to expression that ordinarily would have made me laugh.
“Who is it? What was he doing around here?” said Ryan.
“I found a food pack hauled up between two trees. It was crawling with flies.” I waited for some reaction, concentrating on my words to keep the images from crowding out my tenuous self-control.
“Flies on the food pack?” he finally asked.
“Yeah. Strange, isn’t it?”
“Who’d let food rot?”
“That’s what I thought,” I said, glad to find my voice returning to normal. “There’s a campsite over there. Two tents, one’s a mess tent and the other is for sleeping. Only there was no sign that anybody had been around for at least a few days. There’s a canoe hauled up and battered