“You screwed up, you silly bitch,” he hisses at Ruth, “Mort’s f’kin furious you wasted his time. All you had to do was take your f‘kin clothes off. What’s so hard about that?”
Ruth still has a carving knife in her hand, but figures he’s not worth the effort; anyway, she has made up her mind. “Don’t worry, I’m getting the money back—well, ten thousand, anyway.”
“My people don’t like being messed around, Ruth.”
“Your people?” laughs Ruth as she peers into the weaselly little man’s eyes and sees right through him. “You don’t have people, Tom,” she spits. “You don’t even have a pot to crap in; that’s why you use ours every morning. And somebody’s been stealing the toilet paper. Is that you?”
“No ...”
Something snaps, and Ruth suddenly finds all her suffering, fears, and worries enveloped in a roll of toilet paper. “I said, ‘Is that you,’ Tom?” she shouts and backs him against a fridge with the knife. “Is that you?” she screams into his face.
“Ruth,” he pleads as the knife presses at his throat.
“I said, ‘Is that you’ taking the toilet paper?” she hisses as the knife starts to cut.
“Ruth, please.”
A bead of blood oozes from Tom’s neck. “Have you been stealing the toilet paper?” she demands.
“You don’t know what they’re like,” Tom bleats, and Ruth realizes that his head is on the block alongside hers.
“The toilet paper, Tom. What about the toilet paper?” she yells as the crimson welt begins a slow leak.
“Yes ... Alright, alright. I took a roll of toilet paper.” “Rolls,” she hisses through clenched teeth. “Rolls of toilet paper.”
“Yes. OK. Rolls of toilet paper.”
“Thank you,” she says calmly, and slowly withdraws the knife. Tom’s hand goes to his throat and he takes a breath of relief and starts to say, “Sorry,” when she slams her knee into his groin with enough force to lift him off the ground, and he drops to the floor with eyes full of tears.
“That’s for the toilet paper, Tom. Now tell your people to wait a few days, OK?”
“Oh, my balls!” Tom cries, writhing in agony on the kitchen floor, but she sneers, “You’re lucky I didn’t cut them off after what you set me up for. Now get up and get out.”
Ruth is still pumped as she waits in the apartment to confront Jordan. She has disconnected the phone line to his computer and mentally practices her tactics for over an hour before she hears his footsteps up the back stairs.
“I’m tired,” he says, his voice dragging the ground as he slumps into the room.
“The computer’s not working at the moment,” she tells him firmly as he heads to bed. “I need to talk to you first.”
He drops into a chair, asking, “What is it, Ruth?”
Ruth brings out the box of pills and carefully places it on the table between them, like an exhibit. “Why haven’t you been taking your pills?” she inquires.
“They’re expensive ...” he starts, but she’s ahead of him.
“If you needed more money you could have asked, but that doesn’t answer the question. Why didn’t you take these? You’d paid for them.”
“They upset me, so I got something else.”
An alarm bell is ringing in the depths of Ruth’s mind, but she forges on. “I spoke to the support counsellor. She says that Los Angeles thing is probably a scam.”
“What does she know? My doctor really thinks it will work.”
Ruth brightens momentarily at the news, then folds as she sees her plan to repay the money coming apart. “Is he sure?”
“Pretty sure. He wants me to go as soon as possible.”
“Just before Christmas?”
“Probably.”
Ruth sits back, her future full of open-crotch photo shoots, and she hits on an idea. “Who’s your doctor?”
“Benson ... Why?”
“I’m going to talk to him tomorrow.”
“I don’t think you can,” says Jordan. “I don’t think they’re allowed to discuss my case with anyone else.”
“They can if you give me permission,” she says, then grumbles, “I always feel like such an idiot at the support group when I don’t even know the type of cancer, or what you’re taking. I am going to see Dr. Benson tomorrow to get some answers. And I’ll find out more about Los Angeles while I’m at it, all right?”
Jordan starts, “I’m not sure ...” but she shushes him.
“No arguments, Jordan. I’ll reconnect your computer, but first I want your signed consent ... Deal?”
Ruth’s plans start unravelling in the early hours of the morning when Jordan begins a prolonged bout of sickness. “I must be getting worse,” he explains weakly, his voice hoarse from retching. “Will you stay with me, Ruth? I’m frightened,” he adds, and she spends most of the night sitting at his bedside listening to the reassuring sound of his snores. She creeps away before dawn and has most of the lunch menu prepared before Cindy and the new girl, Marilyn, arrive at seven.
Jordan wakes early, and his thumps on the floor above the kitchen send Ruth scurrying upstairs.
“Don’t leave me, Ruth. I’m really scared.”
“You’d better come with me back to the hospital,” she suggests, but he shakes his head. “I’ll be OK in a day or so. It might be the chemo.”
With her mission on hold, Ruth has the coffees made by seven when the staff and Mike Phillips arrive. Ruth smiles as Tom U-turns on the threshold and heads to Donut Delight with his head down.
“Thought I’d pick up a coffee on my way to the city,” Phillips tells Ruth. “But I’m not in a rush.”
“I was going this morning, but Jordan’s not well,” says Ruth as Trina turns up.
“Pity. I could’ve given you a ride,” says Phillips.
Trina catches on and quickly jumps in. “I’ll look after Jordan, Ruth. That’s my job. You go—everything will be fine” Then she drops her voice. “Another date already?”
“Trina ...” warns Ruth with a trace of amusement.
“I hope your husband doesn’t mind me taking you,” says Phillips as he opens the car door for Ruth.
“Not at all,” she replies, failing to mention that Jordan doesn’t know. She would have told him, but feared he would freak out when he discovered that she’d taken Trina into her confidence. In any case, as she’d told Trina, he’ll probably sleep all day. “Just put your ear to the door every so often,” she had said. “Don’t go in unless he calls.”
It’s more than an hour’s drive, and Ruth’s tenseness comes through as she fiddles with her purse and stares stolidly ahead.
“You OK, Ruth?” Phillips asks. “You look as though you’re going to snap something.”
“Going to the doctor,” she tells him truthfully, though he gets the wrong impression and looks concerned.
“Nothing too serious, I hope.”
“Oh, no,” she says, thinking that it will be if Dr. Benson insists Jordan should go to Los Angeles.
“So