“Hey,” he says, grinning. My knees feel shaky and I suddenly fear Izzy’s long-gone bell will start ringing like an alarm. I grab the doorknob behind me.
“Hey.”
He pulls his windbreaker off and his grey t-shirt is soaked underneath, sticking to the bones of his chest. “Ever been swimming in the rain?” he asks.
“Ever been struck by lightning?”
He smirks and his eyes shift beyond me into the house. I pull the door closer behind me and stare back at him. Smiling, he shakes his head, turns and clomps back down the porch steps. I shoot a quick glance back at the den before latching the door and following him, picking along the gravel walkway in my bare feet around to the flagstone. He’s grinning like a game show contestant as he slides sideways, his arms out for balance, down through the loose sand to where the tide washes up.
I slide down after him and he’s already pulling off his shoes, laying his sopping socks across them. He pulls off his shirt and I drop my eyes, kick clumps of sand towards the water. The clouds are opening, the air clean and still, and the sound of the ocean is louder for the loss of rain. We have to shout to be heard.
“Well?” he says.
“Well, what?” I say, not looking up.
“You coming?”
“It’s freezing. The water’s probably freezing.” I fold my arms across my chest and squint out at the misty horizon.
“Yeah, so.” He leans in and mutters a few inches from my face, “Nobody asked you to get naked.” His ears are red before the words are even out of his mouth and he turns, lets out a whoop and runs in, holding up his sagging shorts with one hand as he flops backwards into the ocean. I run a few yards down the beach and plunge in, burying my cheeks in green sea.
He treads water and pushes back into the oncoming waves as they start to crest, then paddles quickly as a swell catches the back of his head, driving him under. He comes up spluttering, grins and waves me over, but I dive like I didn’t see and come up close to shore. I swim for a while by myself, treading water and checking the house to make sure none of the curtains are pulled back from the window.
The quiet, dreamy-eyed boy in homeroom—I never would have believed he could be so loud. He shouts and ducks under water, coming up spluttering and laughing, then whoops as a wave gathers and gathers and gathers, paddling hard to catch the edge of the crest. At school he’s silent, his elbows tucked close to his body like he’s ready to flinch at the slightest movement, but now he spreads his arms wide and flops backwards, his eyes shut with a quiet, beaming smile.
I slog out of the water and pull my legs up to my chest, shivering. Everett rides the wave straight towards shore, his head sticking out like the carved face on the front of a pirate ship as the tide sweeps up to my toes.
“I’ve gotta go,” I say. “I’ll catch pneumonia.” He flops down on the sand beside me and I inch away.
“Oh, right,” he says. “You’re never sick.”
“What are you talking about?” I’m looking out at the water but I try to put a lot into my voice: You don’t know me. This is the first time we’ve ever even hung out. Dummy. Jerk. What do you know.
“You didn’t miss a day of school all year,” he says, propping up on his elbows so he’s staring straight at me. He’s right. My first year of high school (and the three years of junior high before that) my home room teacher gave me a Perfect Attendance certificate on the last day of school.
“How would you know? Been interviewing my friends?”
He lowers his chin and gives me a steady, patient look, as the heat creeps into my face. If he’s noticed I never miss school, then he’s noticed I don’t have any friends. In the beginning I got invited to sleepovers but of course I could never go. After a while the girls in my class stopped talking to me, and now I sit alone during lunch, rewriting the notes from my morning classes so I’ll remember what to tell Izzy. Most of the other kids pretend like I’m not even there.
I clear my throat. “Well, what, been keeping a chart?” This time I look over and he’s the one to drop eyes and look out at the water. He sits up and brushes the sand from his shoulder.
“I mean, you’re kind of a loner—it seems like you’re always there.”
“Yeah well, what are you, my parole officer? The attendance police?” He walks over to his clothes and shakes out his t-shirt, ducks into it, then grabs his socks and loops his fingers in his shoes.
“I’ve… gotta go,” he mumbles. I watch him scramble up the dunes. The water slaps into me, washes around and behind, then pulls sand out from under me as it recedes. I stop shivering as the light fades from the sky.
There’s the problem of getting into the house and changing without Grand or Izzy seeing me soaking. I jog down the drive, down the sloping hill to where the pavement starts, then walk into the gathering dark and jingle into Red’s garage. He glances out from the truck he’s under as I grab the bathroom key and wave it at him. He nods and I walk around to the side of the painted brick and let myself in. It takes a good fifteen minutes to dry my shirt and shorts under the hand-dryer enough so you can’t tell they’ve been wet. I tiptoe across hot asphalt around to the door, hang up the key and wave to Red again on my way back out.
My feet are raw and prickly by the time I jog back up the porch steps. Grand is sitting in her chair, her face flickering with the light from the TV, so I pull three turkey TV dinners out of the freezer and heat them in the oven. I crimp the aluminum edges back, pull off the cardboard top, then carry Grand’s in on a tray as she finishes filing her nails and lays the manicure set on the table beside her. “Here, please,” she says, patting the coffee table without taking her eyes from the screen.
I eat my dinner at the table, then carry Izzy’s upstairs. She’s scribbling in a lineless notebook she keeps under her pillow and when I walk in she stops writing to stare at my still-damp hair. She raises a pale eyebrow at me, then points out the window and makes swimming motions with her arms.
“No—no swimming. It was just still raining when I went for a walk.” She scribbles on her notepad and holds it up to me. I heard shouting down there.
“Don’t know.” I shake out the thermometer and stick it in the corner of her mouth. She writes, Hair’s on fire!, smiling wanly around the thermometer.
“What’s that mean?”
She shoots me a mock-withering look and writes, Liar, liar.
“It’s pants on fire.”
She laughs. I like hair better.
“Yeah, well, you wouldn’t know a saying from a...” It’s an old game we used to play called “you-say-I-say.” One of us would start a sentence and the other had to finish it. If you guessed what the first person had been thinking, you won.
I stare at the second hand on my watch, waiting a full minute for the mercury to climb. Izzy ponders then writes, Silhouette?
It’s been so long since she’s guessed one I can’t even remember what it feels like, having someone else know what I’m thinking. I take the thermometer from her mouth and tilt it in the light to read, the thin silver line topping out at 100˚. “No, Izzy,” I say, swallowing against the fear rising in my chest. “Salt shaker.”
Must be something, that someone shouting