I didn’t know what to say. This was the first time Mas Hananto had ever told me something that sounded so very “internal” in nature. Even so, I still felt that he was leaving out something.
“After the conference in Santiago, you and Nug will join up with Risjaf in Havana and then go on to Peking for the Asia-Africa Journalists Conference there,” said Mas Hananto, offering further explanation.
I didn’t want to react. And I didn’t want to drink the coffee that had been placed in front of me.
Mas Hananto glanced at me. He knew that I wouldn’t give in to his bidding before he divulged the full details.
“Whenever you sulk, you stick out your lower lip so far you could hang a frying pan off it,” he said with a smirk.
I waited for Mas Hananto to say more but his attention was now on the stream of smoke rising from his cigarette. Shit! I stood to go, leaving the glass of coffee untouched and the envelope with the invitation and air tickets to Santiago on the table top. I had just turned and started to walk away when Mas Hananto called my name in a loud and broken voice.
I sat down, my lower lip still hanging.
Mas Hananto looked both irritated and sad. I had no idea what had come over him. “I can’t go, Dimas. I have to stay here, in Jakarta.”
I swallowed. This was the first time I had ever seen tears in Mas Hananto’s eyes.
“Surti is taking the girls to her parents’ home,” he said hoarsely.
I said nothing. I knew how very much he loved Kenanga and Bulan and how much they loved him.
“Why?”
Mas Hananto didn’t answer.
“Because of Marni?”
Mas Hananto took a deep breath. “I’m trying to persuade Surti not to leave me. That’s why I can’t leave town, much less the country, at this time. I have to take care of family business. If need be, I’ll stay at home and won’t go into the office until Surti has changed her mind and is ready to try again.”
Wordlessly, I picked up the manila envelope and then patted Mas Hananto on the shoulder, as if to reassure him that everything would work out.
Mas Hananto unstrapped his beloved watch. “During the conference, you have to be on time,” he said handing the watch to me.
I knew I couldn’t refuse his offer, not that night, so I took the watch and put it on my wrist.
“I’m sure that by the time I get back, you two will be just fine,” I said, trying to cheer him. “Surti is never going to leave you. She’s just mad at you, is all. Trust me…”
Mas Hananto nodded. I nodded in return and then looked at him for what would be the last time.
FOR PARISIAN WOMEN, A CHANGE IN SEASON MEANS A CHANGE in fashion—perhaps just a light scarf with a floral design wound around the neck to complement maroon-colored flats or to contrast with a beret of checkered motif, or maybe just a simple but elegant white long-sleeved satin blouse. For men like me who pay little attention to fashion—except insofar that clothes are needed to ward off the cold—Paris is in any season the largest open-air catwalk in the world. There’s no obvious planning here. And we’re not talking about the designer or model crowd. Normal Parisian women act and look like models. Parisians are a special breed whose lives are filled with style. In my mind, the term haute couture is little more than a ruse of the clothing industry which has conspired with designers to increase their profits. Nothing more. But, whatever the truth may be, it doesn’t matter, because whatever the season, Parisians are very fashion-minded and pay utmost attention to appearances. Even so, with all the city’s apparent luxury and despite being known as “The City of Light,” two things are missing here: orchids and jasmine flowers.
Tanah Air Restaurant on Rue de Vaugirard is a small and separate island in a Paris full of flair and color. It’s tiny compared to Café de Flore in Saint-Germain-des-Prés which, since the nineteenth century, has been the meeting place for the world’s literary figures and intellectuals who wish to engage in high-minded discussions while sipping soup and drinking coffee. Tanah Air Restaurant—“Tanah Air” meaning “Homeland” in Indonesian—serves authentic Indonesian food, meticulously prepared with ingredients and spices from Indonesia: shallots, turmeric, cloves, ginger, lemon grass, and galingale. But maybe all of this is just the Café de Flore for us political exiles, who spend our lives cooking food for customers and reciting poetry into the night, as we think of the homeland we knew prior to 1965.
Here, in this restaurant, I am sitting with them now. There’s Risjaf, the most handsome and masculine of our lot, with wavy hair and an earnest and honest heart; Nugroho Dewantoro, originally from Yogyakarta, who sports a Clark Gable mustache and has an effervescent personality but a heart of steel; and Tjai Sin Soe (who sometimes goes by the Indonesianized name Tjahjadi Sukarna), an action man and fast thinker with a calculator in his left hand, which he seems to value more than life itself.
As always, at the end of each night of service, after our customers have paid and gone home, Tjai takes out his calculator, counts the money that has come in, and divides up the tips among us all. Mas Nugroho makes sure all the perishable foodstuffs have been properly sealed and stored in the refrigerator; Risjaf cleans the tables and chairs and removes the posters from the windows for the event that took place that evening. Meanwhile, my helpers, Bahrum and Yazir, wash and dry the dishes, glasses, pots, pans, and utensils.
Risjaf has just turned the television station to CNN, which proceeds to air a few seconds of the news that today, in the 1997 presidential elections in Indonesia, President Soeharto was chosen in an uncontested election to serve a seventh five-year term. We are not surprised by the news; just bored. The news is like the sound of mosquitoes at twilight in Solo: ever constant, never changing. Much more interesting for us is the additional bit of news that in the wake of the elections, student demonstrators have taken to the streets throughout the country, and that even the traditionally cowed news media have begun to express public disgruntlement about the fact that the president’s new cabinet is filled with his cronies. Even his eldest daughter, Siti Hardiyanti Rukmana, was awarded the position of Minister for Social Affairs. We look around at one another. Risjaf turns off the television.
Together and without a word—perhaps all of us feeling the need to think of happy times and be consoled by the memories of younger days when we were naïve and full of love—we go from the lower floor of the restaurant to its ground floor and there stretch out on the chairs and listen to the song “Als de Orchideeën Bloeien,” which Risjaf plays on his harmonica. The song stirs and pierces the heart.
As the chords of “The Orchids Are Now in Bloom” float through the open window of the restaurant into the spring air, all of us there are thinking of another orchid, one who went by the name of Rukmini. Rukmini, the orchid… Sipping on small glasses of rum to warm the body, our minds travel back in time to a place forty-five years ago.
JAKARTA, JANUARY-OCTOBER 1952
Three flowers, three young and beautiful women, transformed Jakarta into a garden of delight. Ningsih was a red rose of arresting beauty who made every man’s heart beat faster; Rukmini, a purple orchid whose color never faded with the passing of the seasons; and Surti Anandari, a white jasmine who left her lingering fragrance wherever she went. Men who fell in love with her could almost not function when she was not in their sight.
These three young women were members of the freshman class in the Faculty of Letters and Philosophy at the University of Indonesia in Jakarta. Risjaf, Tjai, and I, being junior classmen, felt ourselves