‘My number is blocked.’
‘I find people, Jack. That’s what I do. And there’s a chance that I can find Donal for you.’
He glanced at all the photographs scattered around him, the cheeky smile of his younger brother staring up at him, silently daring him to seek him out as he had when he was a child.
‘Are you back in?’ she asked.
‘I’m in,’ he replied, and he headed to the kitchen for a cup of coffee in preparation for the long night ahead.
The following night at two a. m., as Gloria lay asleep in bed, Jack lay on the couch, on the phone to Sandy, his hundreds of pages of garda reports scattered around him.
‘You’ve spoken to Donal’s friends, I see,’ Sandy said, and he could hear her leafing through the pages he’d faxed to her earlier in the day.
‘Over and over again,’ he said wearily. ‘In fact, I’m going to call in to one of his friends again on Saturday while I’m in Tralee. I’ve got a dental appointment,’ he added casually and then wondered why.
‘The dentist, yuck, I’d rather have my eyes gouged out,’ she murmured.
Jack laughed.
‘Don’t they have dentists in Foynes?’
‘I’ve to see a specialist.’
He could hear the smile in her voice. ‘Don’t they have specialists in Limerick?’
‘OK, OK,’ he laughed. ‘So I wanted to ask Donal’s friend a few more questions.’
‘Tralee, Tralee,’ she repeated, rustling through paper. ‘A-ha,’ the paper rustling stopped. ‘Andrew in Tralee, friend from college, works as a web designer.’
‘That’s him.’
‘I don’t think Andrew knows anything more, Jack.’
‘How do you know?’
‘Judging by his answers during questioning.’
‘I didn’t give you that file.’ Jack sat upright.
‘I used to be a garda. Conveniently for me, it’s about the only place I managed to make friends.’
‘I need to see those files.’ Jack’s heart raced. There was something new, something more for him to stay awake at night analysing.
‘We can meet up soon,’ she dismissed him politely. ‘I suppose talking to Andrew again wouldn’t hurt.’ There was the sound of her leafing through more pages and she was silent for a long time.
‘What are you looking at?’
‘Donal’s photograph.’
Jack picked it up from his pile and stared at it too. It was becoming too familiar to him; it was looking more like just a photograph and less like his brother every day.
‘Good-looking guy,’ Sandy complimented. ‘Nice eyes. Do you two look alike?’
Jack laughed. ‘I feel inclined to say yes after that.’
They continued studying the pages.
‘You don’t sleep?’ Sandy asked.
‘No, not since Donal went missing. What about you?’
‘I’ve just never been a great sleeper.’
He laughed.
‘What?’ she asked defensively.
‘Nothing. You being a light sleeper is a great answer,’ he said playfully, dropping the pages onto his lap. In the deathly silence of the cottage he listened to the sound of Sandy’s breathing and her voice, and tried to imagine what she looked like, where she was and what she was thinking.
After a long silence her voice was gentler. ‘I’ve a lot of missing people on my mind. There’s too much to think about, too many places to look to allow sleep to come. You can’t find anyone or anything in dreams.’
Jack looked towards the closed bedroom door and agreed.
‘But why I told you that, I have no idea,’ she grumbled to the sound of more paper being shifted.
‘Tell me honestly, Sandy, what’s your success rate?’
Paper rustling stopped. ‘It depends on the level of the missing case. I’ll be honest with you, cases like Donal’s are difficult. There has already been a large-scale search and it’s rare that I have found someone under these circumstances. But with general missing cases I find people around forty per cent of the time. You should know that not all the people I find return to their families. You have to be prepared for that.’
‘I am prepared. If Donal’s lying in a ditch somewhere I want him back here so we can bury him and give him a proper funeral.’
‘That’s not what I mean. Sometimes people go missing deliberately.’
‘Donal wouldn’t do that,’ Jack said dismissively.
‘Perhaps not. But there have been situations just like this where I’ve learned that people just like Donal, from families just like yours, voluntarily move on from their lives without a word to anyone close to them.’
Jack digested this. It hadn’t occurred to him that Donal would take off of his own free will and he found this scenario hugely improbable. ‘Would you tell me where he was if you found him?’
‘If he didn’t want to be found? No, I couldn’t tell you that.’
‘Would you tell me if you found him?’
‘It depends on how prepared you are to accept being unable to know where he is.’
‘All I would want to know is that wherever he is, he’s safe and happy.’
‘Well, then I would tell you.’
After a long silence, Jack asked, ‘Is there much work for you? On the rare occasions that people go missing, don’t their families turn to the Gardaí to deal with it?’
‘That’s true. There aren’t many severe cases for me like Donal’s, but there’s always something or someone to find. There are categories of missing people that the Gardaí can’t and won’t investigate.’
‘Like what?’
‘You really want to know this?’
‘I want to know everything about it.’ Jack looked at the clock: two thirty a.m. ‘And besides, I’ve nothing better to do at this time of night.’
‘Well, sometimes I find people that others have merely lost contact with – long-lost relatives, old school friends or adopted children trying to find their biological parents, that kind of thing. I work quite a lot alongside the Salvation Army, trying to trace people. Then there are the more serious cases such as people who have disappeared, many of them of their own volition, and families just want to know where they are.’
‘But how would the Gardaí know it was their choice?’
‘Some people leave messages behind saying they don’t want to return.’ He could hear her unwrapping something in the background. ‘Sometimes they take their personal effects with them or sometimes people have previously expressed dissatisfaction with their situation.’
‘What are you eating?’
‘A chocolate muffin,’ she replied with her mouth full. She swallowed. ‘Sorry, did you hear me properly?’
‘Yeah, you’re eating a chocolate muffin.’
‘No, not that,’ she laughed.
Jack smiled. ‘So the families come to you for cases the Gardaí can’t deal with.’
‘Exactly.