Size Zero: My Life as a Disappearing Model. Victoire Dauxerre

myself, I’d have ballooned before I knew it. It was out of the question and so, as a compromise, we agreed that I’d eat out with them every other meal rather than all the time. So half the time I let them go off and have lunch or dinner while I found a nice piece of fruit or a low-calorie salad to eat on my own in peace and quiet, without having to endure my father scrutinising the contents of my plate all the time. You had to know what you wanted in life. He had been the first to encourage me to sign that contract and it was too late now to back away from the consequences.

      When we turned in for the night, I cuddled up to Alex. All three of us slept in the same room – Alex and me in the double bed and Léo in the single bed. My brother didn’t say anything, but I knew he could tell that things weren’t OK. And I’d fall asleep clutching Yùki tightly and trying to convince myself that it would pass.