But Michael had realized that if he didn’t see Andy for three whole months, the distance between them might become irrevocable. That was a chance he just couldn’t take. If it meant…Andy getting a little too close to his work, that couldn’t be helped. After all, one of the reasons Michael had quit the police department was so he could spend more time with his son.
“Andy,” he said now, “it really can be a good summer. Just give me a break now and then, and I’ll do the same for you. And. be careful, like we discussed.”
“I know the routine,” Andy muttered. “I’m not supposed to tell anybody you used to be a cop or that now you’re a spy.”
“Private investigator,” Michael amended.
“Yeah, well, what does it matter, ‘ause I can’t tell anybody.” Andy made it sound as if he wished his dad had an ordinary job, like an accountant or a salesman.
“Andy, I want you to be careful in other ways, too.”
“Like what?” he asked, looking more skeptical than ever. Michael considered telling him the truth. Don’t get too close to the pretty lady next door, because she may very well be a murderer. But for Andy’s own protection, Michael couldn’t go that far.
“Just stick close to me and do what I tell you without putting up a fight all the time.”
Andy had that expression on his face again: willfulness, perversity and, underneath, an undeniable wariness. Why should any kid be wary around his own dad? That was what got to Michael the most.
“You know,” he said quietly, “you could try at least a little, Andy. I’m not the bad guy here.”
Andy kept his mouth clamped shut. The belligerence didn’t leave him, but he truly was small for his age, and at this moment he looked much too fragileall spindly arms and legs, ears poking out beneath his curly hair, an undersize kid struggling to protect himself with a cheeky attitude he couldn’t quite pull off.
At last Michael could no longer resist. He reached out and placed his hand protectively on Andy’s shoulder.
“I’m on your side, son.”
Andy pulled away. He still didn’t say anything, just stared straight ahead with that stubborn tilt to his chin, but the message came through. At eleven years old, he didn’t want anything to do with his father.
BEFORE SHE COULD LOSE her nerve, Kim walked right up to Michael Turner’s front door. She rang the bell not once, but twice, as if to demonstrate her own courage. Unfortunately she didn’t feel courageous. She just felt foolish.
No answer came—no Michael Turner appeared. Maybe it wasn’t too late for Kim to change her mind, after all. She hovered on the porch, considering the possibility of dashing back to her own house. She’d actually started down the porch steps when she heard the door open behind her.
She turned around slowly. And there he was, leaning against the jamb, his pose relaxed yet still managing to convey a certain watchfulness. She’d met him only this morning, yet she found herself learning his features all over again. Her gaze lingered on the stern line of his brow, the firm set of his mouth, the dark hair curling over his forehead.
“Ms. Bennett,” he said. “Let me guess. You want your bush back.”
Kim flushed. “Of course not. Although I don’t know why on earth you took it or what you’re going to do with it.”
Apparently he didn’t care to enlighten her. He just stood there leaning in his doorway, observing her with subtle amusement. He didn’t smile—nothing so overt as that—but still she had the uncomfortable suspicion he found her humorous.
She heartily regretted the impulse that had brought her over here. She knew she ought to make up some excuse or other and then return as quickly as possible to the safety of her house. But a contrary pride made her stay where she was. At last Michael stood aside from the door.
“Come in,” he said.
Kim hesitated only a second or two. If she was going to make a royal fool of herself, she might as well go all the way. She brushed past him, stepping inside the house.
Evening light spilled over the Mexican tiles of the entryway and burnished the oak floors of the living room beyond. Kim had been in the place a few times before, calling on the previous tenants. The furnishings were the same—sofa and wall hangings in desert hues of sage and sienna—but already Michael and Andy had managed to leave their own imprint: books scattered on the carved chest that served as a coffee table, a single shoe cast off by itself in a corner, a shirt dangling from a chair post. It seemed the two bachelors were settling in.
“Where’s Andy?” she asked.
Michael gave her a look of mock disappointment. “You only came to see my son?”
“Not exactly,” she said, feeling even more ridiculous about coming over here. What had gotten into her? Usually she was so much more self—assured. All those years of playing hostess at Stan’s dinner parties had at least taught her to pretend sophistication. Why was she unraveling now?
Michael spoke. “After supper, a few kids from the neighborhood came by and invited Andy for a game of kick—ball. Maybe he’ll make some new friends.”
Just as she had that morning, Kim sensed Michael’s concern for his son. She heard it in his quiet tone and saw it in the troubled expression that crossed his face.
“Some nice kids live on this block,” she said. “I’m sure Andy will do fine.”
“Parenthood doesn’t make you sure of anything,” he answered.
“I guess I wouldn’t know.” Kim tried for a light tone and failed. “Stan and I—we never had children.” Now her dead husband’s name seemed to weight the air. It brought too many memories with it, such as the humiliating reason she and Stan hadn’t become parents. Futilely Kim tried not to remember all the secret shame. The silence only grew heavier.
Michael Turner didn’t make things any better. He didn’t ask for explanations, didn’t try to cover up the empty spots in the conversation. He stood there, regarding her silently. But that couldn’t be a hint of compassion in his eyes—surely not.
“Do you know about Stan?” she asked, her throat tight. “About the way he died. When my mother—inlaw rented the house to you, she must have said something. She can’t stop talking about him.”
Michael didn’t speak for a moment. Then he nodded, almost with reluctance. “Yes. She told me.”
Maybe it was pity she saw in his expression. She couldn’t tolerate that, and she needed something—anything—to distract her. Operating on a hunch, she crossed the living room, found a button under one of the wall hangings and pressed it. Smoothly and soundlessly, a portion of the paneling opened up to reveal a bar, complete with pitchers, decanters, ice bucket and tongs. She glanced at Michael.
“I have one just like it,” she said. “Both these houses were built at the same time, and I always wondered. Well, the people who lived here before were a very sedate older couple. I couldn’t very well ask them if they were hiding liquor behind the wall.” Kim listened to herself, feeling more absurd than ever. “I’m trying to say that I don’t usually go snooping around the neighbor’s—”
“Don’t let me stop you,” Michael said. “Your mother-in-law said something about a bar, but I never did find it.” He stepped next to her and picked up a bottle of vermouth. “Care for a drink?”