“You’d do just fine.”
“I don’t know that I would. You’ve been my rock ever since I can remember.”
“You’re stronger than you think, Lauren Tanner,” Rhena lectured. “Life’s dealt you some hard blows, but you’ve bounced back from every one of them, fists up and ready to fight.”
“Bounced back?” Lauren repeated doubtfully. “Crawled is more like it.”
“So it took you some time to recover. So what? The point is, you did. A weaker person would’ve curled up in a ball and given up. Not you. You grieved a little, sure. What woman wouldn’t? But then you gathered up the pieces of your life and went on about the business of living.”
Lauren suspected that Rhena was referring to more than her divorce. She was thinking of her mother’s death, as well. Growing pensive, she turned to gaze at the darkness again. “I wish I knew why Mom did what she did.”
“She was unhappy,” Rhena said simply.
“Why?” Lauren asked in frustration. “She had a good life. A husband and children who loved her. A beautiful home and plenty of friends. What more could she have wanted?”
Rhena laid a hand on Lauren’s arm. “Honey,” she said gently, “some things just can’t be explained. They just are.” Drawing her hand back, she began to shell peas again. “Your mother was…fragile. She was when your father married her, and nothing he could do or say was going to change that. And believe me, he tried every way known to man to make her happy.”
“Am I like her?”
Rhena looked at her in amazement. “Where did that come from?”
“Devon said I was. That I was impossible to please, just as she was.”
Rhena huffed. “That’s the biggest bunch of malarkey I’ve ever heard. Devon was the one to blame for the failure of your marriage. Never even tried. He was a taker, not a giver.”
“Dad thinks I’m a fool for having given him access to my bank accounts.”
“If he said that to you, then your daddy’s the fool. Devon was your husband. You had no reason not to trust him.”
“I do now,” Lauren said wryly.
“Yes, but not then. You loved him. A woman should be able to trust the man she gives her heart to.”
“‘Should’ being the operative word.”
“Yes,” Rhena agreed. “But just because one man disappoints you doesn’t mean they all will.”
Lauren shook her head. “Once burned was enough for me. I’ll never let another man hurt me like that again.”
Lauren worked alongside Luke most of the next morning, trimming the trees that surrounded the lodge. The chore was his idea, not hers. Since there wasn’t enough tin for him to finish repairing the roof, he’d suggested trimming the tree limbs that grew over the lodge, which he claimed were responsible for most of the damage done to the roof. Once they started trimming, he’d insisted upon removing the dead limbs, as well, since, according to Luke, they posed a threat to anything and anyone below if they were to fall during a windstorm.
As she worked alongside him, dragging away the limbs he cut, she noticed that he kept his hat down and his face averted. It was no easy task, considering he was manning the pole chainsaw and had to keep his gaze on the tree overhead while cutting down limbs. Lauren had tried to ignore the awkwardness of his position, but after several hours of watching him, she totally lost her patience.
Dropping the limb she held, she snatched off his hat. “Enough is enough!” she cried angrily. “I know your face is scarred, so there’s no point in trying to hide it from me any longer.”
He clamped his jaw down and snatched his hat from her hand. “I wasn’t trying to hide anything. Just trying to protect you, was all.”
She tossed up her hands. “From what? I’ve seen cases of acne that were worse than the scars on your face.”
He dropped his gaze and touched a hand to his cheek, as if to be sure the scars were still there. “Most folks find it hard to look at me.”
“Well, I don’t, and I would appreciate it if you’d look me in the eye when you speak to me, instead of ducking your head.”
A muscle ticked on his jaw. “Yes, ma’am.”
“You’re not looking at me, you’re looking at the ground.”
He lifted his head and narrowed an eye at her. “Is that better?”
She jutted her chin. “Yes.”
“Can we get back to work now, Ms. Tanner?”
“Don’t call me Ms. Tanner. My name is Lauren.”
He settled his hat over his head again, though this time in a more natural and comfortable position. “Yes, ma’am…Lauren.”
He put enough bite in her name to let her know that he might be willing to follow her orders, but that didn’t mean he liked them. Deciding she’d pushed him far enough for one day, she picked up the limb she’d dropped and dragged it toward the brush pile, her nose in the air.
“Now that we’ve got that settled, let’s get back to work.”
Luke dipped the scoop into the feed bucket and measured out oats. He’d put in a solid five hours at the lodge, driven back to the Bar-T and put in six more, gathering steers and heading them to a new pasture. He was dead tired, but his mind was running like a colt fresh out of a stall.
He didn’t know what to make of his new boss. First off, she was a Tanner, which meant she had to be rich as sin. Yet he hadn’t seen any evidence of an extravagant lifestyle. No fancy clothes. No flashy jewelry. Even the car she drove wasn’t what he’d expect to find a woman of her caliber driving. Although fairly new, the vehicle was modest at best…and totally unsuitable for where she currently lived. In his opinion, a person who lived in the country needed a truck or, at the very least, an SUV. Something tough enough to navigate rough terrain, and with enough storage capacity to haul whatever needed hauling.
And her current living conditions sure as hell weren’t the Hilton. She and the woman who worked for her were all but camping out at the lodge and one of the cabins, having carved out living space for themselves amid the mess that went along with remodeling and construction. From what he could tell, the older woman took care of the household chores, while Lauren handled whatever grunt work needed doing. She worked right alongside Luke, doing chores better suited for a man, when she could just as easily have sat on the porch in the shade painting her nails and shouting out orders.
But the thing that confounded him most about the woman was her reaction to seeing his face. He’d known that she’d gotten a fairly good look at him the day before in the barn, when he’d lost his hat while killing the rattler. But the lighting was dimmer in the barn and he figured—based on the fact that she hadn’t screamed or covered her eyes—that she hadn’t seen how badly he was scarred. He might’ve gone on believing that, if she hadn’t snatched off his hat this morning in full daylight and looked him square in the face, without flinching so much as a muscle. In fact, the only emotion she’d displayed was anger. That I’ve-had-all-of-this-I’m-gonna-take kind of anger that let a man know when a woman had reached the end of her rope.
Giving his head a shake, he dumped the oats into the trough and moved down the alleyway to the next stall. And that’s what he couldn’t figure. Why was she so hell-bent on him exposing his face? And why hadn’t she cringed when she’d seen it? Hell, he was no fool. He hadn’t been much to look at before the fire, and the scars it had left him with sure hadn’t improved his appearance any. Ry Tanner might be a gifted plastic surgeon, but he was no magician. He couldn’t put back what wasn’t there in the first place.