The realization shocked Suzanne.
He hated her.
It was so obvious now. But why? She didn’t know…and yet it really didn’t matter. Hope fled from her heart as completely and swiftly as a deer flees a hunter.
She turned toward the door, nearly knocking over a stool in her haste to escape him as panic started to overwhelm her. She’d been a fool to come here. To think he’d help. Her tears burst free, blinding her and turning the world into little more than a blurry collage of color. She stumbled, then paused, wiping at her eyes in an effort to bring her surroundings into focus, to turn the sunlight streaming through the open hangar door into more than just an undefinable bright blur.
Guilt and regret instantly rushed through Hart, but he fought them off as staunchly as he did the urge to reach out and stop her. Tears were just one of a woman’s many tools, and most women knew how to use them all too effectively. Another lesson he’d learned a long time ago—repeatedly.
He moved to stand beside a disabled UH-60 Blackhawk, leaning his back against the gunner’s door. Yet in spite of the lazy appearance of his stance, every muscle in his body was taut, every nerve on end. He couldn’t give her the benefit of the doubt, or even consider believing her. It was out of the question.
Nevertheless he was curious and wanted to know more.
“So if I assume your story is true, why come to me, Suzanne? What do you expect me to do?” He tried to keep his features as hard and unrelenting as he tried to keep his voice. Part of him wanted her to walk out of the hangar without answering. But another part of him, the part he had to fight off with everything in him, urged him to close the distance between them, pull her into his embrace and take what he’d wanted, what he’d dreamed about for so long, and damn the guilt, the world and everything else.
Suzanne turned and, as their eyes met, felt her breath nearly desert her.
For the briefest of seconds she saw desire flame to life in his eyes, felt it reach out to her, beckon to her and stoke the fires of the attraction she’d felt for him before Rick’s death.
Then, as abruptly as the glimmer of desire had appeared in his eyes, it was gone, and there was nothing left there but cold anger again.
Flushed, her mind refused to collate an answer to his question. She looked away again, suddenly engulfed by a flash of memories: the first time she’d met Hart…the attraction that had stirred within her…the guilt that had followed. It hadn’t mattered to Suzanne that her marriage was virtually over, that her husband had indulged in numerous affairs, that she had been the only one still trying to make the marriage work. The guilt had eaten at her night and day, relentlessly.
Her mother, who fell in love as effortlessly as most people fall asleep, was on her sixth husband, and Suzanne had always been determined not to follow in her footsteps. For richer or poorer, in sickness or health, until death do us part—that had been a promise she’d intended to keep, no matter what.
Then Rick had demanded a divorce.
She pushed the memories aside and looked back at Hart. How well had she really known him? He’d been Rick’s senior officer and friend, not hers. Had she been a fool for coming to him?
Friend or enemy? The words echoed through her mind again, taunting her as she stared at him. Yet in spite of them and the fear that gripped her, that undefinable something that had been between them since the day they’d first met, still drew her to him.
Suzanne stiffened against the sensations assaulting her. For the past year she’d been building a barricade around her heart, protecting herself, and now she could feel the structure weakening and threatening to crumble.
Her emotions were in turmoil only because she was so scared, that was all. A month ago the FBI had shown up at her door and questioned her relentlessly. Last week after their third visit, she’d known she had to do something to stop their badgering questions and prove their suspicions wrong. She’d called her cousin Molly, a State Department employee and the only person she could trust. But Molly hadn’t been at work or home. She was on a survival trip somewhere in the wilds of Montana, and according to both her boss and her mother, she was totally unreachable.
That was when Suzanne had known the only person who could help her was the only person who’d seen Rick die—Hart.
She felt his gaze on her and pulled herself together enough to answer his questions. “I came to you because I don’t have anyone else to turn to. I don’t want to end up dead or spend the rest of my life in prison, and to avoid that I need your help, Hart.”
She watched his eyes narrow again, his jaw clench tightly and the small vein on the side of his neck twitch ever so slightly. Apprehension seized her. A shiver of fear skipped up her spine and swept goose bumps across her skin.
Oh, God, she prayed, don’t let him be the one I should be running from.
Reason and rationale warred with the resentment and anger that had been pent-up inside Hart since Rick’s death. Her claims were ludicrous. Too ridiculous to be anything but impossible. Even so, they could explain why someone was investigating him.
He mulled the possibility over in his mind, trying to look at it rationally and calmly.
A week ago his company commander had informed him that someone from Washington had called and asked some very pointed questions. That wasn’t unusual. Someone was always asking questions about the Cobra Corps, even though just about every assignment the army’s elite, special-ops helicopter unit was given was top secret.
It was still a fairly new unit, as far as the army was concerned, having been borne out of a special mission during the Persian Gulf war. Six men brought together to fly a mission most others considered suicidal. But they’d succeeded. Now the Cobra Corps, attached to the 12th Aviation Brigade, 99th Cavalry Division Air Mobile, consisted of thirty-two men, all pilots and officers, with a special attachment of mechanics, aides, communications officer, crew chiefs and a medic. Their permanent base was Three Hills, Arizona, but they could be called out at any time for anything. Their missions were usually classified and highly dangerous; rescuing political hostages, “relieving” certain political pressures, circumventing political uprisings, dealing with the before, or aftermath, of terrorists, and conducting top secret surveillance, being the usual types of assignments.
But this time the questions had been about Hart. Still, neither he nor the company commander had been overly concerned. Hart was the corps’s flight leader, and he was up for promotion. The questioning wasn’t routine, but someone was probably just being overly efficient, ordering a check on him “for the record.” A formality.
But he should have been concerned, because yesterday someone from Washington, and he didn’t know who, had requested his 201 file. To request an officer’s personnel file from his commanding officer was an unusual request. It could mean nothing; someone had a question about him before approving his promotion, or he was being considered for a special assignment and his background was being rechecked. There were numerous possibilities, including that his career was in serious jeopardy.
Now he wondered if these incidents and Suzanne’s sudden return and unbelievable claims could be connected?
He shook his head. He was letting his imagination run wild. Anyway, his commanding officer had denied the request. No one had gotten his file.
Hart caught Suzanne’s gaze and held it mercilessly. “The feds can’t resurrect a dead man, Suzanne.”
Bitterness tinged his tone.
“Hart, I don’t—”
“Rick is dead, Suzanne. I saw his chopper take a direct hit. I saw it explode and go down in a shower of flames and debris. No one could have survived that.”
She took a step toward him, panic rising in her again. Whether he was out to destroy her or he was her only chance to survive, she couldn’t allow him to send her away. She wouldn’t. At least not