Of course, Emily’s baby changed all that. Still, she wasn’t consumed with an innate sense of motherhood the way she’d expected to be, the way she’d seen it in so many other women she’d known. The way Janice Parsons was when she bundled Lucas into her arms so protectively the instant Deanna handed him over to her.
“I think he’s OK,” she said, a little envious of the way the boy went from her embrace to someone else’s so easily. Hadn’t she snuggled him the right way? “His name is Lucas, and I’ll have the doctor do another exam on him as soon as he can. In the meantime, if you could …”
There was no sense in finishing the sentence. Janice’s mothering instincts were on full alert as she turned Lucas away from the wreckage. All that natural tendency—a beautiful thing to see, really. “Don’t give him anything to eat or drink,” she said, taking one last look at the boy then at Janice, envying the way she exuded motherliness from every pore.
Would that ever be her?
That thought plagued her as she ran over to the edge of the road where the guardrail was smashed and broken, then looked down. Thank God, the drop-off to the first ledged area was barely more than a hundred feet. Sure, it was a long distance if you were in the car going over it, but the distance was short enough that she was cautiously optimistic.
“Hello,” she shouted. “Can anybody hear me?”
The response was one staccato honk, which came as pure relief. But also frustration, knowing she couldn’t make that climb down. Thank heavens some kind of natural instinct had kicked in and kept her planted on terra firma, because her natural inclination would have had her over the side before she’d even given it a thought. She still wondered, though, if that instinct would be enough in the long term because, dear God, everything in her wanted her to go over that edge.
“Help’s on the way,” she shouted, actually taking a step backwards. “Please, don’t move. And if you have a cellphone …” She called out her number and actually stood there for a second, waiting for a call back. Which didn’t come. “I’m going to go get the doctor. We also have the fire department on the way. So don’t give up. We’re going to get you out of there in a few minutes.”
“Truck driver’s wedged,” Beau said, the instant Deanna rounded the front of the truck. He was standing on the asphalt, looking through the windshield at the driver, who was stuck fast between the steering-wheel and the seat. “Internal injuries, some bleeding. Broken arm. Mangled leg … not sure if it can be saved. Head trauma but conscious. Strong possibility of hemorrhagic shock once we get him out. I can’t do anything about it until we have more help.
“I’d stay in there with him but it’s too tight and I don’t want to risk slipping or moving the wrong way and hurting him more than he already is.”
“We’ve got survivors in the car that went over,” she said, trying to sound positive.
“Were you able to get down there?” he asked, his eyes glued to what was visible of the man in the truck.
“No, but someone honked.”
“So all we need is …”
“Everything,” Deanna said. “All we need is everything.” She studied the man next to her for a moment. Mid-thirties, but with some lines etched in his face. Dark brown hair, a bit over the collar and wavy. Brown eyes. The kinds of things that would have been included on the sperm-donor card—had there been a donor card. But in addition to the sperm switch, the donor card had gone missing.
What wouldn’t have been described on that card, though, was the kindness she saw in his eyes. From that, she was drawn in immediately. Not that his good looks alone couldn’t have done it but those were an added bonus, gave her some hope for the way Emily’s child might look. “My name is Deanna Lambert. But I’m betting you already knew that, didn’t you?”
He smiled, although he didn’t even glance in her direction. “You’re renting a cabin here for a month to do some medical writing. Live in New York City otherwise.”
“And my zodiac sign?”
He chuckled. “Give me ten more minutes and I’ll not only tell you your zodiac sign, I’ll describe your high-school graduation in detail.”
“That bad here?” she asked.
“Or good, depending on your point of view. The people here describe it as caring and, for the most part, I think that’s right.” Finally, he glanced at her, but for only a second. “I’m Beau Alexander, by the way. Local and possibly temporary doctor, aspiring horse breeder, mender of fences.”
She’d known who he was, but hearing the name—from him—still shocked her, made her reason for being here even more real. Scared her, too. Most of all it made her feel sad, thinking about the way such a happy pregnancy was turning out. “I think I may be renting the cabin above your ranch.”
“Above the Clouds. Nice view. Been up there a couple of—”
His words were cut off by the ringing of Deanna’s cellphone, and without thinking she clicked it on. Listened for a second. Drew in a deep breath. “It’s the people in the car,” she said to Beau.
“What?”
“I gave them my cellphone number in case they wanted to call me. So they’re calling.”
“Damn,” he muttered, impressed with her resourcefulness. More than that, impressed with everything he’d seen of her so far. “Good thinking.”
“Only thing that came to mind. So, do you want to do this?”
He shook his head. “Got to stay focused on the driver, and I have to go back into the truck as soon as the fire department shows up and can keep the door open for me.” The distant wail of several sirens caused him to sigh in relief.
“They’re at Turner’s Points now … you can tell by the echo. Turner’s is the first place in the canyon that catches the sound like that. And it means they’ll be here in about five minutes.” He ran up to the truck windshield and gave the man a thumbs-up then turned back to Deanna, who was already on her way back to the side of the road where the car had gone over.
“Deanna,” he shouted to her, “direct the medical end of the rescue when they get here, because when I get back into the truck I’m not getting out until after my patient does.” Meaning he was going to have to wedge himself into a damned uncomfortable spot practically underneath the man, and stay put. He had to brace the man’s leg, hopefully apply some kind of a splint, before they could move him, and at the same time keep his fingers crossed that the driver would survive the efforts to cut him out of there.
He glanced back at her, watched the way she instructed the paramedics who’d just arrived. He observed her body language, her no-nonsense stance, and liked her instantly. He wished he could have someone like her working alongside him every day.
“Hire someone like Deanna,” he grunted, more to himself than out loud as he hauled himself up the side of the truck after two firefighters had dismantled the door for him and tossed it down on the road like it weighed no more than a plastic water bottle.
“Couldn’t hurt,” he said under his breath as he reached the top then started to lower himself back inside. “Might even help.”
Considering the way he and his grandfather were battling over how to run a medical practice, he was pretty sure that having someone capable like Deanna involved would be another of the old man’s objections. But Beau had to have his say in the matter if he was going to stay here permanently. And having a nurse or a medical assistant seemed like a good idea.
He’d known her for only a few minutes yet he wanted Deanna. Snap judgment and right fit, he believed. But he’d heard she was only renting for a month, which meant she wasn’t staying in Sugar