COLORS INSULTING
TO NATURE
A Novel CINTRA WILSON
For Kent, who is like Abe Lincoln.
And for all the child-stars in my family:
Meghan, Grant, and Adam Dickerson, Abigail and Roscoe Bernard, and Ava and Una Ankrum.
Especially Adam, a great actor and a righteous American.
Just don’t read this until you’re 17, unless accompanied by an adult.
Contents
PART I ARE YOU THERE, GOD? IT’S ME, LIZA
PART V EXILE ON PHANTASY ISLAND
PART VII WHY, IT WAS ALWAYS IN MY OWN BACKYARD, OR, JUST WHEN YOU STOP WANTING IT
EPILOGUE THE ROLAND STONE OF MRS. SPRING OR YOU CAN’T ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT
P.S. Ideas, interviews & features…
M. E. Russell Interviews Cintra Wilson
Why I Wrote Colors Insulting to Nature
A Writer Who Influenced Me: John Fante
ARE YOU THERE, GOD? IT’S ME, LIZA
(A Heartwarming, Young-Adult, Coming-of-Age Tale)
July 23, 1981, Novato, CA
THE FACES OF THE JUDGES revealed, although they were trying to hide it, deep distaste for the fact that the thirteen-year-old girl in front of them had plucked eyebrows and false eyelashes. Something about her well-worn miniature stiletto heels and her backless black evening dress—side slit up to the fishnet hip, with rhinestone spaghetti straps—was unsavory to them. The girl looked way too comfortable. Equally unsettling was her performance.
“… and now, I’d like to perform a little something by someone who has been a huge influence on my work. This lady has the most incredible pipes in the business. I’m speaking, of course, of Ms. Barbra Streisand. Vincent?” she asked, addressing the horrified pianist, who was busying himself with the mosaic of colorful buttons on his Yamaha DX-7 that promised such sounds as “oboe” and “tympani.”
“Could you give me ‘Clear Day’ in F. sugar? You’re too good to me.”
The child took the microphone and Cher-ishly flipped back a long strand of zigzag crimped hair with fuchsia fingernails as the pianist rolled into the opening bars. Her vibrato, though untrained (learned, most likely, by imitating ecstatic car commercials) was as tight, small, and regular as the teeth on pinking shears.
“On a Cleee-yah Daaaaaaaaaaayy
T’ Wheel Asssssh-TOUND Yewum… thank you,” she spoke, as if the judges had just broken into spontaneous applause.
The mother, visible mouthing the lyrics from the wings in an exaggerated fashion, was clearly responsible for this travesty, this premature piano-bar veteran of a youngster.
“Yew can sheeeee Fah-REVAH, ond EVAH.”
The moderately talented girl was emoting with her hands, seemingly tweezing the adult male heart out of its sexual prison with her kitten claws, all too professionally. The judges squirmed in their seats, intensely disliking the thought of their own daughters or nieces belting out a song in this seamy, overwrought fashion—parroting the stage acts of overripe chanteuses, moist with the rot of numerous alcoholic disappointments in both Love and Life. The mother would probably be devastated if her child didn’t land the gig… she might, in fact, lock herself in an all-peach-colored bedroom and wash down handfuls of muscle relaxants with cheap Polish vodka from a plastic handle—jug; her unfortunate daughter would be left for days without milk and forced to eat lipstick. It was this thought that brought large grimaces of feigned appreciation to the faces of the judges as the girl collapsed into the bow as if she’d just wrung every drop of hot life out of herself and was now utterly spent. She blew a few kisses toward the judges and urged them to “give themselves a hand.”
The mother, whose diaphanous, mango-colored pantsuit was trumped in visual loudness only by the Louis IV—style stack of conical curls on her strawberry-blonde wig, came forward and shook the girl playfully.
“Say goodbye to the nice judges, Liza,” she mewed.
“Goodbye to the nice judges, Liza,” the girl cracked, with a wink.
“Go outside and amuse yourself while Mommy talks grown-up-talk.”
Liza pouted theatrically, then waved bye-bye to the group of middle-aged men as she wobbled on her heels out of the conference room. Seconds later Liza was visible through the one-way windows on the lawn of the industrial park, trying to swing on one of the large, nautically themed boat chains that roped off the parking lot. As she yanked one of the nagging rhinestone straps back up onto her porcelain doll-shoulder, the judges were petrified with worry that the miniature disco Lolita would be spotted