THE NEXT MORNING, the web designer was late for their follow-up appointment. When she finally arrived, she entered in a huff, which Pearl mistook for more of yesterday’s outrage. But once the woman had taken her seat and unwound a long red scarf from her neck, the first thing she did was apologize.
“You probably won’t believe this,” she said, “but I hate it when people yell. I’m not one to raise my voice.”
The woman, Annette Flatte, made her apology in a practical manner with no self-pity or shuffling of blame. She wore the exact same outfit she had the day before, a white T-shirt and tailored gray slacks. Pearl imagined Ms. Flatte’s closet full of identical outfits, fashion an unnecessary distraction.
“Did they tell you about what happened after the Christmas party?” Ms. Flatte said. “Why they brought you in?”
Pearl made a quick calculation and decided that Ms. Flatte would not be the type of person who would consider feigned ignorance a form of politeness. “Your coworker who killed herself? Yes. They told me at the outset. Did you know her?”
“Not really. Copywriting, Design: different floors.” Ms. Flatte opened her mouth, then closed it again, reconsidering. Pearl waited her out. “Some of them are joking about it,” Ms. Flatte finally said.
Pearl was already aware of this. Two employees had made the same joke during their sessions with Pearl: Guess Santa didn’t bring her what she wanted.
“It’s tacky.” Ms. Flatte shook her head. “No. It’s unkind.”
“Unhappiness breeds unkindness,” Pearl said dutifully, one of the lines from the Apricity manual. “Just as unkindness breeds unhappiness.” She reached for something else to say, something not in the manual, something of her own, but the landscape was razed, barren. There was nothing there. Why was there nothing there?
“They’re scared,” she finally said.
“Scared?” Ms. Flatte snorted. “Of what? Her ghost?”
“That someday they might feel that sad.”
Ms. Flatte stared at the scarf in her lap, combing its fringe. When she spoke, it was in a rush: “She wrote something for me once, a little line of copy, or actually poetry. She left it on my desk my first week here.”
“What did it say?”
Ms. Flatte bent down to the bag at her feet. Pearl could see the bones of her skull through the close crop of her hair, could see the curve and divot where spine and skull met. Pearl pictured fitting these pieces together, turning the tiny screws. Ms. Flatte came back up with a pocketbook, and from its coin compartment she extracted a slip of paper. Pearl took the slip carefully between two fingers. It was printed with a computer font designed to imitate hasty cursive.
You will take a long trip and you will be very happy, though alone.
“I looked it up,” Ms. Flatte said. “It’s from an old poem called ‘Lines for the Fortune Cookies.’ And see? Doesn’t it look like the little paper you get inside the cookie? Apparently she did it for everyone on their first week, chose a different line from a different poem. To welcome them. No one else told you about how she did that?”
“They didn’t say.”
Ms. Flatte pressed her lips together.
“The truth is, you were right,” Ms. Flatte said. “Or your machine was anyway. I do need something.” She laid heavily on the last word. “I don’t know about religion. I was raised to distrust it. But … something. This morning—” She stopped.
“This morning?” Pearl prompted.
“The bus takes me through Golden Gate Park, and there’s always these old people out on the lawn doing their tai chi. Today I got out and watched them for a while. That’s why I was late to meet you. Do you think … could that be it? For me, I mean? Do you think that’s what the machine could have meant?”
Pearl pretended to consider the question, already knowing she would deliver the standard reply. “Try and see. With Apricity, there’s no right and wrong. There’s just what works for you.”
Ms. Flatte smiled suddenly and broadly, her whole face changed by it. “Can you imagine?” She laughed. “All those old Chinese people … and me?”
She thanked Pearl, apologizing once more for her outburst the day before, before bending to gather and rewind her long red scarf.
“Ms. Flatte,” Pearl said as the woman stood to go, “one more thing.”
“Yes?”
“Would you say that you anticipate Apricity’s recommendations will improve your overall life satisfaction?”
“What’s that?”
“Will you be happier?” Pearl asked. “Will you … will you be happy?”
Ms. Flatte blinked, as if surprised by the question; then she nodded once, curt but sure. “I think I will.”
Pearl was surprised to feel a flare of … was it disappointment? She watched the gentle nape of Ms. Flatte’s neck as the woman walked from the conference room, and she felt a sudden and ferocious wish that Ms. Flatte would turn around and, as she had the day before, begin to shout.
WHEN SHE RETURNED HOME, Pearl wondered if she’d find the apartment empty again. But no, there was Rhett, in his room at the computer, doing schoolwork, just as he was supposed to be.
“Hey,” he said without turning around.
Pearl was so focused on the delicate wings of his hunched shoulders that it took her a moment to spot the half-finished trilobite set out on his desk.
“Is it okay I took it?” He’d turned and followed her gaze.
“Of course. But it’s not finished yet. It still needs its details: antennae, legs, a topcoat of shellac.” Then, on impulse, “You could help me finish it.”
“Yeah, maybe.” He’d already turned back around.
“This weekend?”
“Maybe.”
Pearl lingered. She wished she could make her departure now, on this promising note, but they had to get it done before Rhett ate (drank) his dinner.
“Rhett? It’s weigh-in day.”
“Yeah, I know,” he said tonelessly. “Just let me finish my paragraph.”
He met her, minutes later, in the bathroom, where he shrugged off his sweatshirt and put it into her waiting hand.
“Pockets,” she said.
He gave her a look but obliged without comment, turning them inside out. It had been his trick in the past to load his pockets with heavy objects. When Pearl nodded, Rhett stepped on the scale. She was not tall, but he was taller than her now, taller still as he stood on the scale. Taller, but he weighed less than her, and she was not a large woman. Rhett stared straight ahead, leaving Pearl to gaze at the number on her own. She felt it, that number. Higher or lower, she felt it every week, as if it affected her body in reverse, lightening her or weighing her down.
“You’ve lost two pounds.”
He stepped off the scale without comment.
“That’s not good, Rhett.”
“It’s a blip.” “It’s not good.”
“You’ve seen me. I’m drinking my shakes.”
“Where were you yesterday?”
He closed his mouth slowly, defiantly. “Nowhere that has anything to do with that number.”
“Look. I’m your mother—”
“And I’m sorry