The Woman In The Mirror: A haunting gothic story of obsession, tinged with suspense. Rebecca James

the captain as I do, miss, there is slim chance he would have given blessing to your expedition. I’ll wager it was one of the children, was it not?’

      I swallow. Edmund is a boy, full of the boldness of youth. What child hasn’t told a white lie in defiance of a parent? That I will pay the price of that lie is unfortunate. I struggle to answer Mrs Yarrow, but my silence is answer enough.

      The cook sits. ‘All I’m suggesting, miss, is that being without their mother might have…addled their natures somewhat. Is it possible that your woman on the cliff was in fact the boy himself? That the twins persuaded you into the outing as a way to pursue their game? These children know Winterbourne and its surrounds better than anyone. It’s their home. They’ve no fear of tumbling into the sea or tripping on a stray log – they know every inch. It’s their playground.’

      We’re interrupted by the sound of a closing door.

      ‘Edmund!’ I jump up.

      The boy is huddled next to Tom, the houseman’s coat wrapped around his small shoulders. He is pale and cold, his teeth chattering, and his copper hair is plastered to his forehead with precipitation or clammy fright.

      ‘Found him in the copse,’ says Tom, ‘and a good job, too.’

      Mrs Yarrow steers him into the kitchen. ‘Let’s get you warmed up, lovey.’

      ‘Edmund, darling,’ I step forward, ‘are you all right?’

      As the boy’s meek form travels past me, I feel the urge to apologise – though for what, I do not know. He was the one who ran from me. I cannot bear to think of the accusations that passed the cook’s lips just moments before. Seeing Edmund’s frail body, shivering and innocent, I cannot entertain it for a heartbeat. I think of him shaking and alone on the moors and want to scoop him into my arms.

      But it seems I am required elsewhere. Captain de Grey appears in the hall.

      ‘Miss Miller, I must see you immediately.’

      Amid the brutal shadow of his face, his blue eyes glint like diamonds. They frighten and excite me, both at once.

      I turn to Edmund but the boy is being led away. For an instant, he glances behind him and sharply meets my eye.

       *

      ‘Just what in hell do you think you were doing?’

      ‘I’m sorry, Captain. It was foolish to leave Winterbourne. Accept my apology.’

      ‘Did you not deem it necessary to ask me first?’

      ‘I’m very sorry,’ I say, for I cannot think of anything else. Edmund is a child, and I could always have overridden his claim.

      The captain pours himself a drink – brandy, strong, in a cut-glass tumbler – and knocks it back. ‘Do you want one?’ He pours another.

      ‘No, thank you.’ He drinks more. He wipes the back of his hand across his mouth and I notice the coarse black hairs on the outside of his wrist.

      ‘Sit down,’ he tells me. I do.

      ‘Do you have any idea,’ he says, ‘what those children mean to me?’

      ‘Yes, Captain.’

      ‘Do you have children?’

      ‘I do not.’

      ‘Then you lie.’ He sits at his desk. It is scattered with paper, an ashtray bearing the stubs of several cigars, and a framed photograph whose picture I cannot see from this angle. ‘You cannot possibly grasp what it might be to lose a child,’ he says. ‘I could have lost Edmund today. Do you hear me? Do you understand?’

      I swallow dryly. I have no idea what it is to lose…

      Oh, but I do, Jonathan, I want to say. Oh, but I do. And I think that if I were Laura de Grey, with this husband and these children, I would have wanted to live for ever and a day. I would have risked losing nothing. I would have held them all to my heart so tightly that none of them could get away.

      ‘I accept full responsibility for what happened,’ I manage. Any protest that Edmund orchestrated his own fate would sound petty on my part. If the price is the captain’s anger then so be it. ‘It was reckless to leave Winterbourne.’

      I wonder where the captain was this morning, when I came knocking. Possibly he was sleeping, or possibly he’d been drinking. But for a tired man, for a drunk, his eyes are piercingly clear. The burned side of his face is in shadow (does he always sit so as to ensure this?) and his dark hair is unkempt. He trails a long finger around the rim of his brandy glass, watching me.