He asked Mona to sit on the padded stool in front of the vanity and address the camera directly, saying whatever came into her head.
“Um, testing one, two, three. Testing.”
“You look great. Talk some more. Tell me about yourself.”
“My name is Mona—” She stumbled for a second, forgetting the order of her surnames. After all, she had five.
“Where did you grow up, Mona?”
“Oh, here, there, and everywhere.” Mona had learned long ago to be stingy with the details. They dated one so.
“What were you like as a young woman?”
“Well, I was the … bee’s knees.” An odd expression for her to use, one that pre-dated her own birth by quite a bit. She laughed at its irrelevance and Bryon laughed, too. She felt as if she had been drinking brandy Alexanders instead of venti mochas. Felt, in fact, the way she had that first afternoon with her second husband, when they left the bar at the Drake Hotel and checked into a room. She had been only thirty-five then, and she had let him keep the drapes open, proud of how her body looked in the bright daylight bouncing off Lake Michigan.
“I bet you were. I bet you were. And all the boys were crazy about you.”
“I did okay.”
“Oh, you did more than okay, didn’t you, Mona?”
She smiled. “That’s not for me to say.”
“What did you wear, Mona, when you were driving those boys crazy? None of those obvious outfits for you, right? You were one of those subtle ones, like Grace Kelly. Pretty dresses, custom fit.”
“Right.” She brightened. Clothing was one of the few things that interested her. “That’s what these girls today don’t get. I had a bathing suit, a one-piece, strapless. As modest as it could be. But it was beige, just a shade darker than my own skin, and when it got wet …” She laughed, the memory alive to her, the effect of that bathing suit on the young men around the pool at the country club in Atlanta.
“I wish you still had that bathing suit, Mona.”
“I’d still fit into it,” she said. It would have been true two months ago, before she discovered Starbucks.
“I bet you would. I bet you would.” Bryon’s voice seemed thicker, lower, slower.
“I never let myself go, the way some women do. They say it’s metabolism and menopause”—oh, she wished she could take that word back, one should never even allude to such unpleasant facts of life—“but it’s just a matter of discipline.”
“I sure wish I could see you in that suit, Mona.”
She laughed. She hadn’t had this much fun in ages. He was flirting with her, she was sure of it. Gay or not, he liked her.
“I wish I could see you in your birthday suit.”
“Bryon!” She was on a laughing jag now, out of control.
“Why can’t I, Mona? Why can’t I see you in your birthday suit?”
Suddenly, the only sound in the room was Bryon’s breath, ragged and harsh. It was hard to see anything clearly, with the lights shining in her eyes, but Mona could see that he was steadying the camera with just one hand.
“You want to see me naked?” she asked.
Bryon nodded.
“Just … see?”
“That’s how we start, usually. Slow like. Everyone has his or her own comfort zone.”
“And the video—is that for your eyes only?”
“I told you, I’m an independent filmmaker. Direct to video. A growing market.”
“People pay?”
Another shy nod. “It’s sort of a … niche within the industry.”
“Niche.”
“It’s my niche,” he said. “It’s what I like. I make other films about, um, things I don’t like so much. But I love watching truly seasoned women teach young men about life.”
“And you’d pay for this?”
“Of course.”
“How much?”
“Some. Enough.”
“Just to look? Just to see me, as I am?”
“A little for that. More for … more.”
“How much?” Mona repeated. She was keen to know her worth.
He came around from behind the camera, retrieved a laminated card from the drawer in the vanity table, then sat on the bed and patted the space next to him. Why laminated? Mona decided not to think about that. She moved to the bed and studied the card, not unlike the menu of services and prices at a spa. She could do that. And that. Not that, but definitely that and that. The fact was, she had done most of these things, quite happily.
“Let me make you a star, Mona.”
“Are you my leading man?”
“Our target demographic prefers to see younger men with the women. I just need to get some film of you to take to my partner so he’ll underwrite it. I have a very well-connected financial backer.”
“Who?”
“Oh, I’ll never say. He’s very discreet. Anyway, he likes to know that the actresses are … up to the challenges of their roles. Usually a striptease will do, a little, um, self-stimulation. But it’s always good to have extra footage. I make a lot of films, but these are the ones I like best. The ones I watch.”
“Well, then,” Mona said, unbuttoning her blouse. “Let’s get busy.”
FETISH, MONA SAID TO HERSELF as she shopped in the Giant. Fetish, she thought as she retrieved her mail from the communal boxes in the lobby. I am a fetish. This was the word that Bryon used to describe her “work,” which, two months after their first meeting, comprised four short films. She had recoiled at the word at first, feeling it marked her as a freak, something from a sideshow. “Niche” had been so much nicer. But Bryon assured her that the customers who bought her videos were profoundly affected by her performance. There was no irony, no belittling. She was not the butt of the joke, she was the object of their, um, affection.
“Different people like different things,” he said to her in Starbucks one afternoon. She was feeling a little odd, as she always did when a film was completed. It was so strange to spend an afternoon having sex and not be taken shopping afterward, just given a cashier’s check. “Our cultural definitions of sexuality are simply too narrow.”
“But your other films, the other tastes you serve”—Mona by now had familiarized herself with Bryon’s catalog, which included the usual whips and chains, but also a surprisingly successful series of films that featured obese women sitting on balloons—“they’re sick.”
“There you go, being judgmental,” Bryon said. “Children is wrong, I’ll give you that. Because children can’t consent. Everything else is fair game.”
“Animals can’t consent.”
“I don’t do animals, either. Adults and inanimate objects, that’s my credo.”
It was an odd conversation to be having in her Starbucks at the LeisureWorld Plaza, that much was sure. Mona looked around nervously, but no one was paying attention. The other customers probably thought Mona and Bryon were a mother and son, although she didn’t think she looked old enough to be Bryon’s mother.
“By the way”—Byron produced a small stack of envelopes—“we’ve gotten some letters for you.”
“Letters?”