Sarita waited, contemplating the list of things humanity had called this one through the millennia, sacred names and obscene names.
“What to call me?” the beautiful woman wondered aloud. “And in which delicious language? Your language?” Her face took on a look of worry, then amusement, then resolution. “Call me La Vida.” She glanced quickly at the tree on the horizon, and a grin transformed her.
“Ah, yes,” breathed the old woman. “Life.” It seems the creature had ambitions beyond her scope.
“Or . . . perhaps not that. I think I prefer La Luz.”
La Luz? This, too, seemed wishful thinking. There was little enough light in this corner. Sarita nodded agreeably. “Of course.”
“No,” the woman corrected herself. “La Verdad. Call me that.”
“As you say,” Sarita shook her head as she moved to retrieve her bag.
“Wait!” The vision spun in place, the hem of her dress stirring ash where she stood. “The name must be grand! Romantic! Call me La Diosa!”
Yes, of course, thought Sarita. Why not call yourself a god while you stand in your own proud world of delusions? She remembered being told once of a popular nightclub in Guadalajara by that name, where women shamed themselves dancing on the stage half-naked. The picture amused her.
“You make me dizzy,” Sarita said, sighing. “La-this. La-that. La-la-la.” Imagining the naked women in the strip club, she felt the impulse to play with this arrogant creature. “Could you not simply be Lala? It has flash.” The redhead turned to stare at her. Sarita hesitated, fearing that she had caused offense. “That is to say, it speaks of both light and liveliness,” she amended.
“I am La Diosa,” the woman stated with finality, and then forced a smile. “As we are sisters in this cause, I suppose I could allow you to call me . . . some lively thing.”
“Good. Then where do we start, Lala? Should I prepare myself?”
“Stay as you are, dear,” she urged. “Let us call on memory, that prince of truth, to lay a path for us!”
“But memory—”
“I know everything,” Lala interrupted. “Remember that. Doubt me, and we have nothing—nothing but light and motion and . . . and fragile buds on an unnamed tree.”
Sarita tried to remember precisely what Miguel had said about memory, but could not. Before she had time to consider what might be wrong with buds on a tree, her companion had moved toward her, swiftly, soundlessly, and was gazing deep into her eyes again.
“The resurrection of a dream,” she stated solemnly.
“The return of my son,” Sarita corrected.
“This is felicitous,” the woman murmured. “The solution lies within my realm of understanding.” She held her piercing gaze. “You were clever to seek me out.”
“Well, as it happens—” Sarita began, but Lala was still talking, still staring.
“Be sure you are respectful.”
“Yes?”
“Be mindful of my unique skills, my ways, and my laws. Listen to me.”
Listen, but don’t believe, Sarita reminded herself.
“Listen, and obey,” Lala added.
Sarita was resolved to remain in this remote terrain, regardless of the company. She must linger here until her son could be swayed. “Of course,” she answered demurely. “How do we begin?”
The creature brightened at the question. “How. Yes.” She smiled. “How, what, and why. There is no progress without these things.” She moved away from Sarita, apparently thinking. Sarita watched her and waited.
“We begin with the first memory,” Lala announced suddenly, “and move on from there.” She glanced at the old woman. “You brought a shopping bag,” she said. “You must have anticipated this.”
Sarita looked at the bag, dumbfounded. Was it going to hold memories, then? Was this to be among her mysterious instructions? She wanted to laugh, but kept her silence.
“With enough memories, we have a dream—a talking picture show of all that is true about a man. I will guide you through the memorable scenes, through each crucial bit of knowledge, and in time we will have gathered all the pieces necessary to solve the puzzle called . . . Miguel.” Lala’s voice held on to the last syllable of his name as a bow glides along the strings of a violin, letting the sound fade slowly, melodically, into silence. Miguel: the word seemed to conjure images of something familiar, something sorely missed. The air around them stirred slightly, bringing with it a hint of warmth and sound.
“We have very little time, madam,” Sarita said emphatically, breaking the spell of the moment.
“Time is my creation,” was Lala’s response. “We have as much of it as I say.” With that, she took the old woman’s hand and gently helped her back upon the giant root.
Sarita, her hand still in Lala’s, thought she heard the faraway patter of rain, but the sky had not changed. Clouds still billowed and streamed; lightning still flashed in the distance, its force reverberating through her body, but no thunder followed. She felt the woman squeeze her hand. Lala stood very still above her, her gaze fixed somewhere in the distance.
She was looking, Sarita saw, toward the Tree of Life, and her face held a curious expression. It was one of fierce anger and deep longing. It was definitely both, although Sarita knew that such feelings did not exist together in the natural world. The old woman looked at the place she had last seen her son, and wondered if she should have respected his wishes this time and let him be. That was something she had rarely done, but now . . .
Lala suddenly let go of her hand. As Sarita looked back at her in surprise, the darkness fell over them both, pierced only by a single, soft light. It was candlelight.
Sarita was no longer sitting under a tree in a vast and desolate landscape. She sat on an ordinary wooden chair in the corner of a small room, watching a man and a woman making love by the light of a single candle set in a fruit jar.
My conception was an event Sarita often talked about. My birth was a little unusual, and things became even stranger from then on.
I was born into an unusual family, one whose ancestry could be traced to the Eagle Knight lineage of ancient Aztec people. Those designated to be Eagle Knights were respected as wise men and advisors to their communities. Like our communities today, theirs were comprised of politicians, soldiers, farmers, and artisans. When I use the word “artisan” in relation to these ancient people, I also mean artists of life, or toltecas, as they are called in our storytelling. A reality based on words wisely spoken and beliefs playfully chosen was their form of art. Among the wisest, there were individuals who fought against the poisonous fear that so often comes from human thinking.
I didn’t always know what I could become, or might become, while I lived in this human body. It is true that there were spiritual warriors existing even in my immediate family. At the time of my birth, my mother was already a known curandera, and to her healing practices she applied many of the sacred rituals that she’d learned from my grandfather, don Leonardo. His father, my great-grandfather, was called Eziquio. Although “trickster” was the word most often used in describing him, both