The Goldberg Variations
MARK GLANVILLE
Fourth Estate
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Published by Flamingo 2004
Previously published in Great Britain in hardback by Flamingo 2003
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‘Like C4’s ‘Faking It’ makeovers, The Goldberg Variations opposes two purposes seemingly too different for one person to undertake successfully. Glanville’s ongoing battle between football and music fascinates. One facilitates the other – his first trip to OldTrafford was a reward for passing Grade 5 clarinet. One impinges on the other – concerned about protecting his opera voice, Glanville lowers it an octave on the terraces. The emerging dialectic evolves alongside traditional rites-of-passage (first solo trip abroad, first love, etc) and against a backdrop of troubled sexuality – teenage frustrations kindled by his sisters and an inability to climax with girlfriends. Glanville’s openness is seductive and his memoir is disarming.’
Time Out
‘A richly enjoyable and moving memoir.’
Tribune
‘A chilling account of life on the terraces and of the loyalty it engenders. It is also a fascinating description of the long process of having your voice professionally trained for the opera stage.’
Irish Examiner
‘A readable, funny and intelligent story of a man’s struggle to find himself among a confusion of different lives.’
Cork Evening Echo
For Joshua and Arabella
Were the wind to blow even slightly against them My eyes would refuse to close HITTAAN BIN AL-MU’ALLAA
CONTENTS
VARIATION ONE: The Football Hooligan
VARIATION TWO: The Oxford Classicist
VARIATION THREE: The Opera Singer
I must own that I could have assured any questioner that Combray did include other scenes and did exist at other hours than these. But since the facts which I should then have recalled would have been prompted by voluntary memory, the memory of the intellect, and since the pictures which that kind of memory shows us preserve nothing of the past itself, I should never have had any wish to ponder over this residue of Combray.
Swann’s Way, Marcel Proust
What makes me myself rather than anyone else is the very fact that I am poised between two countries, two or three languages and several cultural traditions. It is preciscly this that defines my identity.
Les Identites Meurtrieres, Amin Maalouf
Happy the man who can celebrate his diversity. I wonder how long, if at all, it took the author of the above to reconcile the disparate elements of his own personality, to recognise that they could live in harmony, and that his identity was a compound of them. For a large part of my own life the contradictory elements of my identity have been at war, and have fragmented rather than fused me. Despairing of any reconciliation, I’ve often wished or plotted for the destruction of all but one of them (which depended on my changing mood), so that I and it might live in peace thereafter. What follows is an account of that campaign.
‘So Abey goes into a mensvear shop …’
Sometimes we’d go into ourselves, his captive audience perpetually on hand to applaud a nightly stand-up that ran until we’d all left home.
‘I vont to buy a suit!’
With a shift of the jaw his face would fall comfortably into a parody of a ghetto Jew’s cheek-straining smile.
‘I think I can help you, sir,’ the shop assistant would reply with the bright, clipped elocution of the forties public-school-boy Dad had been.
There