“I will not have to force you.”
She shoved back from the table, knocking the bench over behind her. The sound of it crashing to the floor was satisfying in the extreme. “Get this. I’ll say it slowly. It’s. Not. Going. To. Happen.”
He frowned, just the slightest downward curl at each side of his fine mouth. “You are angry.”
Major understatement. “You are right.”
“You will come, over time, to accept—”
She raised a hand, palm out. “Uh-uh. Don’t you even try to tell me what I’ll accept.”
He hadn’t moved. He remained in his seat across the table, looking up, his expression patient enough to set her teeth on edge. “Perhaps now you wish to rest.”
Rest after this conversation? “As if.”
Shaking his head, he rose and carefully stepped free of the bench on his side of the table. “I fear there will be yelling and recriminations, if I stay.”
“No kidding—and don’t you dare leave yet.”
He was already striding for the door.
She flew at him. “You are not walking out of here. Not now. Not until I say what I have to say.” She grabbed his arm.
Big mistake. He stopped and looked right at her.
And there it was, that… energy. That… connection. Hot. And dangerously delicious.
Forget that, she told herself. She gave his arm a good yank and got her face right up to his, so she could stare squarely into those mesmerizing eyes. “He’s alive, my brother. I know he is. I saw him. He was here, in this very room. He stood over my bed and he called me your bride. Now, how could I dream that, when I didn’t know a thing about it until right now?”
Eric did not so much as blink. “Some things are known by the heart before they are known by the mind.”
“Oh, don’t give me that Mystic baloney. Valbrand’s alive. Admit it.”
“You delude yourself.”
“The left side of his face is scarred. Terribly. What did that to him?”
“Turn your mind to what matters here.”
“My brother. He is what matters. And I’m here to find him.”
“Your brother is dead. Accept it. You are here because you are mine, as I am yours. The fates have decreed it.”
“Yours? I don’t even know you.”
“You will. Over time.”
“No.”
He went on, not even pausing. “You are brave and strong. Of obvious intelligence, though sometimes too quick to act, when to watch and wait would be wiser. I have seen you with the children. You like them, you have a kind heart. To look at you pleases me. You are of a good age for breeding, though a bit younger might have been better.”
“Breeding? I’m a good age for breeding?”
“Overall, I am more than content with my father’s choice—and I see in your eyes, in the quickening of your breath when you are near me, that I am not totally repellent to you.”
“This is insane.”
“No. This is as it was meant to be. It is our mutual fate that we be bound, each to the other, as man and wife.”
She let go of his arm and stepped back, mindful not to trip on the bench she’d overturned. “Listen, it’s not my fate to be bound to anyone. I need serious breathing room. For me, settling down goes under later. When I’m older. And slower. But by then, I won’t be such a good breeder, will I? So from your point of view, what good would I be?”
He smiled at that, straight teeth flashing white. “Your point is well taken. I have been too blunt. Months in the wilds will do that to a man. And it’s always possible no children will come of our union. Yet there will be a union—in time. That much I know.” His smile vanished. “And it seems I have said too much too soon. You are not ready to hear the truth.”
She dragged in a long, dramatic breath and let it out slowly. “Hear that? That’s a deep sigh. It means, as I keep trying to tell you, that as far as this you-andme thing goes—it’s not. And it’s never going to be.”
“It is.”
“It’s not.”
He closed the distance she’d opened between them. He did it slowly enough that he didn’t spook her. Too bad. If he’d moved a little faster, she might have backed up. But she held her ground. And then he was right there, in front of her. His strong hand closed over hers.
Slowly he raised her hand to his lips.
She shocked herself. She let him do it. And when she felt his mouth against her skin, a hot and hungry shiver went shimmering through her.
“No!” She jerked away and cradled her hand as if he’d injured it. “Uh-uh. Not. No way…”
Eric made no effort to recapture her hand.
No progress was being made here.
Her fine eyes were wild, her wide mouth set in a scowl. He would very much have enjoyed kissing that mouth. But he’d had several days—to watch, to assess and to learn to admire; to accept the fact that this woman was meant for him. She had only just been informed of her fate, and that made her far from ready for kissing. For now he’d said what needed saying—and more. It was enough. He went to the door and put on his shearling coat, then took down the rifle racked beneath his shotgun.
She spoke then. “Wait.”
He turned back to her slowly that time, holding the rifle with care, barrel to the floor.
She was guiding the silver chain over her head. “I’m not going to marry you, Eric.” She held out the gleaming disk, the heavy chain trickling over her hand, the links falling through her fingers. “I want you to take this. Give it to the right woman when she comes along.”
He felt again the urge to smile. This time he quelled it. “The right woman already has it.”
Her face was flushed, blue eyes flashing. “Eric—” There was nothing to be gained by staying to hear more. He pulled open the door and went out.
Brit was left standing in the longhouse alone, the marriage medallion shining in her outstretched hand.
No problem, she thought, her fist closing tight over the silver disk. He won’t take it. Doesn’t matter. He’s getting it back, anyway.
She marched over to his bed and dropped the medallion onto his furs, turning quickly away from it—from her own ridiculous reluctance to part with it. She righted the bench she’d kicked over and sat on it to put on her boots. Then she grabbed her jacket from its peg. She needed a long walk. A head-clearing dose of cold, fresh Vildelund air.
With her hand on the latch, she hesitated. No way strolling up and down the single village street, trying not to scowl at every friendly villager she happened to pass, was going to do the trick. She needed space and a total absence of other people. And if she was going to wander a little farther afield than the cluster of buildings that made up the tiny town, she’d be wise to do it armed. Renegades, apparently, were a problem around here. And from what she’d been told, there were bears. And wolves. And the legendary white Gullandrian mountain cats—and who knew what else?
Better armed than dead. She got her weapon from her pack, loaded it, put on her shoulder rig and holstered the SIG. Only then did she put on her coat and head for the door again.
Outside, it was in the high thirties. She felt in a pocket and came up with that bag of peanut M&M candies that