JB. Sophie Iremonger

      JB

      Doused in Paint

      Sophie Iremonger

      Artcover: Eme Sofia

      Copyright: BERLINABLE UG

      Berlinable invites you to leave all your fears behind and dive into a world where sex is a tool for self-empowerment.

      Our mission is to change the world - one soul at a time.

      When people accept their own sexuality, they build a more tolerant society.

      Words to inspire, to encourage, to transform.

      Open your mind and free your deepest desires.

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      FEELINGS, FEELINGS, FEELINGS…

      Disturbed,

      the best man turns into a brute in his cave.

      Especially if he’s a busy brute

      a busy brute, a busy young man, young and tastefully attired smooth brute. Busy. Gentle. Brute. The questing childish nose that seeks my tits in the morning, already in the twilight of our affections, his cheeks strange with golden hairs.

      Working backwards… The Rue Michel Marcell Lange…

      And me walking away from JB

      in Toulouse.

      Who is he?

      Remember him, your lover:

      If Disney Princes came in "Bowie flavour."

      He is long, his cock is big and purple, but not overbearing. It is politely big, everything about him is long and polite, his understated French clothes, a beige cardigan, measured rhinestones around the eyes: Ziggy played guitar… quietly… in a library. Because this is how it is now, no stadiums, just people in a town who love skinny JB and want to see him do well. People who feel they all share in his success, and he sparkles, cleanly. Plays the guitar, cheerfully, is confident, but not cocky. Doesn’t drink before the show.

      In bed; he is courageous, clit-blind, penetration-centred, expressive, not afraid to make sounds. The soft "o" shaped sounds as his cock is sucked, his body arching over: hairless, thin, blonde as a Johnson’s baby bottle.

      Above me with his face crushed in the pillow, all you can see is his big mouth open wide, and rows of rows of perfect waffle devouring teeth usually so politely sequestered, blatantly on show. The big full lips on his melon shaped head, of a Cindy or Linda, upturned at the corners, bulging suddenly in the middle into a strong cupids bow-cupids long bow-big beautiful, but again, not too much. And just slightly sullen. Enough so you could try and kiss it away. Above all else he is… Just so.

      Strong eyebrows almost overshadowing green eyes, a deep-set road bound by hedges. As he grows older they will creep lower and lower, grow thicker and thicker, until his eyes are furtive traffic. The right eye when I face him, his left when he looks out from his own, is freckled brown. And the other sounds he makes in bed: sharper euhs euhs as he’s giving it to me, his cock fitting like a stone in a peach, our fleshes clinging. He has never once made me come, I do it myself during or after. And the things he says as his dick gets hard, as we press against each other in the morning, are highly accented, slipping french-wards. Our hip bones meet sharp but shelter one another gently like the polished inside of shells. He whispers, "I am just too hot," which is the French translation of horny, apparently.

      And when I say, "JB your body excites me."

      He says, "aaah that is because I am French."

      Oh baby, just you shut your mouth.

      So, back to the story.

      I’m walking away from him wearing nothing but brown-brown coat, brown boots, brown pantyhose. Yes, it is the 1940s.

      I’m walking away from him, but in reverse I’m hugging him with my face in his ear, kissing his ear and he is impassive, holding me just so. Not too much, so he doesn't give me the idea he cares, and not too little, so he doesn't give me the impression he is callous.

      I am kissing his ear, I am stopping, I am telling him, "look at me, JB. Look at me." Like you do to reprimand a child. I am saying, "JB, I don’t want to date you I want to hook up."

      And I know I have pie all over my face.

      I am looking into his eyes as I say it, noting the freckle, like a departing tourist noting the topography of land from the window of an aeroplane. You have been happy and sad here, but you will never know the country. These are the lands, etc… of lost content, etc.

      The happy hollows that I went.

      And cannot come again.

      "There is pie on your face, Sophie."

      And with him I felt like an ugly beast who had somehow found itself in a beautiful garden, a beast devouring as many apples as possible before it knows it will be deported.

      Escorted from the premises.

      And will know shame.

      And will be forced to wear clothes.

      And I say yes, I am okay with that.

      And he says if you would be okay with that,

      and I say yes, why didn’t you say so,

      and I say why don’t we just have the sex then?

      And he says yes it was fantastic and his face lights up

      and I say, tell me at least that you liked the sex?

      And I tell him he’s an honest person, a great person, and he looks beady eyed, his pupils shrunk to dots in the vast green impassivity of his eye balls.

      He knows something I don’t.

      And he says he doesn’t want to leave on a bad note,

      and he calls my name,

      and it's all spinning away like little bits of glitter,

      another walk out on a bad note, like I always do.

      I am walking away from the cafe

      I thought why don’t you just keep walking, slide softly through the doors while he is paying at the bar, for the soup, the quiche, the fruit tart.

      And the tart is forked into a dry mash of bleeding fruit and almonds, it is cold and taken away.

      and he says he must go.

      He is asking did I feel this way before I came, these feelings for him? And I say a lie, that it was mainly last night, I realised I have feelings for him.